this is pain.

this is fun.

one.
you are stranded alone in an island.
watching all pass-byers neglecting your existence.
you just watch them gleefully.
you just don't realise that you are in trouble.
you are too happy with what you have right now.

two.
you are one excellent individual.
others are like shit as you perceived.
but that doesn't mean you are better than them.
perception is just a play of life.
you just want people to understand and be like you.

three.
you are my friend.
i'm your friend.
others are also your friends.
what you mean by friend is to accompany.
what i mean by friend is to love.

four.
i love you more than i love myself.
you are special.
but don't make me hate you.
you are special.
i will not judge you no more. the above are enough, i guess.

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pain is there,
not to be endured alone,
but to be shared and cherished,
with us whom you called friends. enuf said

ini dedikasi ulang tahun kelahiran

it is already midnight, malaysian time, of course...

and now, publicly and proudly and with sheer joy, i wish the most joyful 19th HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ==>

AHMAD SABQIE BIN MOHD SOFEE @ chan ...

may you really enjoy yourself on this wonderful day...
may you remember me who is still here in malaysia, :P
may you be blessed by Allah everyday , everytime...

you are a big man with a big heart, =D may future holds something special for you...

>jangan nangis, chan, muahahaha<

28th dec

venue: berjaya times square, sungei wang, low yat
time: 11.3am - 7pm
tukang teman: rifqi, acap, faiz, haikal [ejaan betul, x?]
activities:

1] sherlock holmes
amat best.
aku teruja.
mata aku sentiasa terpaku ke arah skrin.
plot, mantap.
lakonan, very enjoyable.
rating, i give this movie 9.8~10/10...

2] teman rifqi beli kasut.
penat.
lawak.
pening.
>terperinci gila mamat ni nak beli sepasang, bagus2< haha

3] jalan2 tempat lain.
:D

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lumba2~

saturday 26/12/2009

venue: besides sunway pyramid
time: 9.30pm ~ 10.30pm
event: DOLPHINS and SEA LIONS show...
price: >using family package< rm3o per person (max 2 adult, 2 children) =rm120

comment: the mammals mentioned above were cute and adorable.
the MC was the one who lightened up the show, actually. very spontaneous.
overall, FUN and enJOYable...

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owh, anda masih scroll ke bawah. saya terharu anda masih setia. terimakasih!
>maaf, saya sedikit kebosanan<

random

soalan common kalo kawan naik keta ngan aku
(when i'm the one who do the driving)...

1) ni keta apa?
mitsubishi space wagon. (i only drive this car at the moment)

2) >sambil memandang 'gear stick'< ko boleh bawa manual x?
dah x reti... (chan, bota, rifqi tengah gelak baca ni)

3) >bawa keta laju2 di selekoh< berapa kali ko amek test jpj?
twice for road, once for the 3 thingy...

4) pernah bawa kat highway, x?
sekali.

5) berapa kali accident time drive?
>diam, buat2 x dgr soalan<

ok, xde sape pernah tanya lagi soalan terakhir, dan tolong jangan tanya. :)
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i want to watch sherlock holmes... !!!
i want to have a certain future... !!!
i want to eat a lot of twister fries... !!!

the big A

i went to watch AVATAR yesterday with my beloved family members...
i was too curious why the rating on imdb.com was high (8-point-something is high. usually, good movies rate at average seven something...)
i expected a blow-your-mind-out-of-your-head experience,
and it sure did deliver!!!

the movie was awesome...
don't need to analyse much about the plot, character development and all other serious stuffs...
just sit back and immerse into the cameron's imagination and wild adventure...
you will be transported into a new world which they called Pandora and i called full-of-adrenaline excitement!!!

personally, i give overall 10/10....
highly advisable for anyone to watch...

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ku lihat burung itu terbang megah...
dari jauh ku impikan sayap yang sama...
ku cipta sedikit demi sedikit sayap ku...
namun, masih belum kukuh buat sekarang...

blur, totally~

i dunno whether to be happy or sad...
stuck in da middle, i guess...

grateful for one thing,
but worry about another...

am i being paranoid?
or am i being tactful?

at first you glow with happiness,
but then cloud of uncertainty starting to block you bit by bit,
you are just unaware and unknown of the future...

and now, i dunno how to respond to what happened...

speechless

12.00am of 16th dec, still hoping and praying for the very best of my result...
12.30am, still can't sleep... suddenly, a sms came in...

"life is 10% what happened to you and 90% how you respond to it" selamat malam~

my heart felt at peace... i carved a smile on my face...

thanks bro... you always know when to soothe my serabut-ness...
=D

14 dec

jalan2 cari hiburan~ klcc again (chan, sila jealous)...
pergi bersama2 saudara fikri...
supposely there is another person, tp ada masalah kenderaan (dimaafkan, :P) ...
summary, watched 2 movies (again)...

1)storm warriors
the characters' name were cute; cloud, wind, nameless, etc2...
the fighting scenes were excellent, plus the pusing2 angles of shooting (smart)
the way it depicted some scenes were brilliant, for me (when conquering other martial artists, for example)
but, i hate the plot... sape yg x suka citer hanging, sila jgn tgk...
the malay subtitle was hilarious...
i give around 6/10 (maybe 7 if the story is not hanging)

2)the princess and the frog
>bota berbelah bahagi nak tgk cerita ini, haha<
>si penjual tiket tgv gelak pabila aku nak tgk cerita ini, i don't care<
i laughed at most of the times >bota pun gelak2 juga, harap maklum<
each character provided unique strength to the story...
the music was fun...
i give around 8/10 ...

i'm waiting for avatar, the rating at imdb.com is quite high... (currently 8.4/10)

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result sace examination will be released tomorrow (16/12/2009) ...
wish my friends and I the best of luck... =D

good and evil~ which one? you choose~

i have finished THE BTN course needed for anyone who wants to fly...
people said it was tormenting,
i said it was fun, was an eye-opener and managed quite successfully to instill patriotism inside me~

i have asked and googled some who had gone there in the past (years ago), majority gave negative impressions while majority who went there around this year gave positive notes...
one assumption here is that BTN has changed its approach to deliver to students...
if there is really changes in methodologies and wiles, it should be applaud and praised as it has managed to change from 'creating hatred towards the programme' to 'instilling love and understanding for the nation'... with all the ruckus and chaos happening here and there, the worst that we want is a fallen nation, something that we all don't dare to see and feel (well, i dunno if there is anyone who don't even give a damn about the country but only care for ihis/her power and status)... ok, i don't want to be seen as pro something or somewhat, this is just a matter of thought and opinion... x setuju? open up a blog and write it down, thank you and harap maklum~

well, it is not perfect, nothing is... sure it has its bumps and loopholes, but we can see that they want to rectify the problems and try to satisfy the ultimate goal which is PATRIOTISM...
overall, BTN explained the importance of law (in this case, the constitution) to control and maintain peace in the country... seriously, i didn't give a thought nor care about the constitution before... everything needs a guideline to ensure smoothness in management and actions, so does this country... problems arise when some wise men or women just ratling about everything without even give some minute to refer to the guideline... this is unwise and could create a catastrophic consequence... i beg (to anyone), please be more careful in giving out any statement...

>serious pulak bunyi nya, pejal< :P

thoughts and expressions jangan di hold sangat~ luahkan kalau perlu... kalau salah, apa guna keluarga dan kawan kalau tidak perbetulkan... kan~!?

anyway, i enjoyed most of myBTN experience, but not all of them... still, it was fun... i enjoyed the physical activities the most... the repelling was thrilling... sampai kat atas menara tu, hati dah berzikir dan mulut mula bertasbih (time cuak baru nak ingat Tuhan)... time repelling, layan gile, bajet macho r dapat buat... sampai bawah, puas hati gile, rasa nak repeat lagi, tapi gasi peluang lah kat lain... kembara was laughable... it was laughable when we are the only group who went into the muddy river... what we thought as simple turn out to be challenging when the path is not followed... dah taubat tu, kambali ke jalan yang lurus dan berjaya sampai ke kem kembali... :P

LDKs; seronok... maybe sebab fasilitator kumpulan yang menarik... ada je benda nak pekena kitorang... mula muka2 serius... pas dah kena, senyum sengih2, haha... ustaz2... anda memang cool~ tapi time part serius tu, memang rasa aura belajar tu... all the activities are more on the constitution with relation to other issues... this is where we, the group members, learn... one important thing is that, you need to read a lot and try to differentiate between facts and assumptions... even my facilitator asked us not to believe him wholly and try to to think for ourselves before accepting any input or information... kita ni manusia, xkan lari dari kesilapan...
that's why we need to evaluate the pros and cons (something i still find difficult), before come out with any conclusion... bak kata orang, jangan terima bulat2... buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih supaya diri kita yang banyak kekeruhan dapat dijernihkan sedikit demi sedikit...
the last LDK was the peak of excitement... tengah syok2 gembira nyanyi2 lagu, dan kena 'jajah'... dibisukan dan diblurkan dengan jayanya.... tengah buat kerja, dan2 ada kena tangkap... memang blur la kan... tapi dalam LDK ini lah, baru dapat rasa kekitaan untuk memastikan semua berjaya... pastu, kena buat tugu, semangat berkobar-kobar tu memang dapat dirasai...

secara keseluruhannya, x rugi la pergi~ i went with a thought only to pass, but more did i get...
maybe in other camps, it was different, but in Meru, it was suprisingly superb...
thanks to all involved; tuan kamal (ketua fasilitator), ustaz khairul (tazkirah mantap, serius xkan lupa ustaz ni), ustaz arasz (my faci), pak mus, pak rani, pak dol dan pas ya (jurulatih berdedikasi dan penyeri sepanjang kursus), halim, fahmi, p-dud, syafiq, din, murni, radhwa, dinee, poje, fana, aisyah dan faizah (ahli kumpulan yang menarik dan menggembirakan) & to all others... it will be different without you guys...

> i do hope i pass the written exam, quite hard not knowing most of the part<

dec 1st

on that day, i celebrated the expiry of my student card... > :P <

i went to klcc, just to loosen up a little bit...

in brief, i watched two movies and bought two books...

new moon; many hate it but i like it...

it was much better than twilight with less awkward moments here and there...

at the least, i can feel the emotions of the story rather than irkness of the mushiness of the lines...

yeah, i cannot deny the buffness of taylor lautner a.k.a. jacob black, one of the reason i managed to stay 'alive' throughout the 130-minute movie... >just kidding, i suppose<

personally i would give 5~6 /10 for this movie...

2012; wow~!!

the CGIs were just amazing, i can even forgot that i was having a full bladder throughout the ~3- hour movie, how uneasiness can go away in times of amazement...

who doesn't like to watch everything being ripped apart and washed away? unless it happens to him/herself... >moga dijauhkan<

in my view, this movie should be rated around 7 out of 10...

then, with ample of time left, i went to kinokuniya just for sight-seeing, at first i thought...

with all those good books arounds, how could you not buy any of them...

i wandered around thriller sections; john grisham's section, to be exact...

and i decided to buy the associate...

and alang2 dah sampai kat kedai buku, baik beli dua buku, just in case i get bored and have no intention to go to anywhere to buy books, i bought another one; salahudin ayubi: penakluk jerusalem... i was influenced to buy this book after watching the kingdom of heaven...

the end of my trip, and yeah, it was a tiresome but a very enjoyable day...

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buying btn's stuff : RM110

experience you gonna get from btn: priceless~