hailoh~

striving for the best, but i seem to lost the main essence in life,,,

have a good job + big money are fascinating,
but family and firendship will always prevail, whatever happens...
what is the meaning of life without the latter...

sorry for any harms~

here a song by christina aguilera entitled "hurt"

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerousIt's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you~

the calling of above~

the words are absorbing slowly and deeply...
blood drains from all parts of the body...
dear~ do stop it..., plz~

words~

easier said than done; i agree~
for some, words are their power to strive....
for the best or the worst...
it's up to them...
>have the inside corrected<

when only the talking do the working, nothing will come up...
it needs the body to follow the order...

my words are for the sake of goodness, nothing more but can be less...
my dear "fren", don't misunderstand me...
mine is caring, never loving...
>to care doesn't mean to love, but to love always mean to care <

-peace-

~are words supposed to be this painful?~
~i accept~
~another part and parcel of life~

dengar2~

listened to a song at youtube,,, it had quite interesting pictures in it...
"second serenade-i hate this song"
like the part at 1.10 min...

& another song called "love and truth" by yui... like the voice and music... ignited the spirit~

driving, anyone?

kakak: fareez, jom tolong angkat barang gi umah kakak...
fareez: baik lah kakak ku~
***naik kereta ke umah beliau bersama2 barang yang dikehendaki***
***sampai rumah***
kakak: nanti drive sendiri balik umah, k~
fareez: baiklah kakak ku~
***angkat2 barang***
fareez: kak, camna nak balik umah, eh~?
kakak: keluar pak guard, belok kanan kiri kanan kiri... nampak shell, masuk kiri... then terus je, don't belok2...
fareez: ...?
~aku teramat susah nak ingat jalan~
***abeh angkat2***
kakak: fareez, tolong beli air ngan ais
fareez: baiklah kakak ku~
***naik kereta, belok2 ikut naluri hati, terbelok salah jalan, termasuk "one-way" (ku lawan arah); selamat sempat pusing :P, beli ais ngan air (kakak 7E banyak membantu), hantar barang ke rumah kakak, & kembali ke rumah***
p/s: dialog telah diubah mengikut kesedapan hati penulis... isi tetap sama...

my driving skill is still not that good... kata orang, still ganas... masuk lorong sesedap hati dan perasaan... kena hon beribu kali (exaggerated, :P)... hilang pedoman di tgh jalan raya sekali sekala... alhamdulillah, no major damage happened... hope to maintain that record~

>physics presentation on wednesday, chemistry test on thursday, malaysian studies quiz on friday<

-peace and tranquility-

of CPR, IELTS & HSM~

my head crammed~ >pain2!!< huhu,,, abaikan ketidaknormalan ini buat sementara...

ok~ on friday, i with my frens attended a course on CPR; a handy tool to save a life... the instructor was mr. murugan (right spelling, i guess :P); very interesting fella of his own... he knew he stuff well... we learned the DR ABC concept (Danger Response Airway Breathing Circulation)... some tried it on a dummy...

the next day (saturday the 25th), IELTS~~!!! hailoh... for me, it turned out OK... but after the tests that i realised some silly mistakes that i've done especially for the listening paper, T_T ...
ku berserah pada-Mu... writing, managed only to put in two points (really hope it is not bad)...
list of target band:
listening (6.5~7.5)
reading (7~7.5)
writing (6.5~7.5)
overall (~7)

Then, went to Pyramid to watch High School Musical but the 2.30pm ticket was sold out... sobsob... just went for achery with fellow frens... mesti tengok HSM gak walau apa pun, huhu...
beli gak tiket 4.30pm kat Summit...

It started out as a disney channel movie (aired some years back), and gained a very huge number of fans worldwide; a very impressing number, i think~ now, it hits the cinema... quite a success... for me, the movie was enjoyable (mau tgk lagi kalo boleh)... maybe the plot was too simple but the way the movie was screened, hulamak, so appealing... plus, the songs were wow... and the dancing, hands down, was superb and difficult to follow, i assure you, :P... for those who love to watch the first one, you must watch this final installment (i hope there is more)...

>love the artistic values< :D

speaking mode on~

the first thing in the morning, debate on GM organisms... huhu,,, the atmosphere was extremely tense between the the prime minister+minister of agriculture and the 2nd opposition MP... i totally failed as the 3rd opposition MP... hailoh2~ not born to debate la budak sorang ni... sumer POI couldn't be answered, sobsob (one accepted POI only, with 2 were denied)... hurm~

fuh, in the evening, got IELTS speaking test... really cuak overdose before entering the room... my crime scene was Room 3 with Mdm Sarjeet Khaour (i hope i spelt her name right, sorry).. berbasa-basi dulu, then got into the serious parts... i got the topic "pollution"... huhu,,, quite happy... but no so good in goreng-ing... twice, i paused for quite a long time... haiya~ hope it turns out well... (wishing for band 7 or 7.5)...

>did my face really show my nervousness?< huhu

-peace-

orchestra~

listening to "gustav holst - the planet op. 32"... juz listened to three of the series... finishing it off later... the music were masyuk~

movies~

watched two movies on friday...

after friday prayer, took a Rapid and headed straight to summit... climbed to the 3rd or 4th floor (can't remember which floor it is, :P) and without any queuing, bought three tickets for "disaster movie"... how was it? hurm... quite expected to have some laughs, but not as laughable as scary movie... the movie-maker just wanted to cramp everything inside. For me, the main essence was not there....

at night, went again to the same place to watch max payne... but couldn't watch in peace somehow, after that incident *curse2*... ok, watching in the THX really left me deaf for a while (first time masuk THX, huhu)... really satisfied with the visuals and audios... you can feel the tense... but, the plot was quite confusing with hanging in the end *ala~*...

macam nak tengok eagle eye (after some good review from friends) but, considering the time constraint and ISAT test tomorrow, later2-lah...

best2

Wah,,, an exciting week of mine…

Went to two of my friends’ house… One organised a doa selamat; has flown to Egypt, entering Tanta University, taking medicine (bile la aku nk fly ni, huhu)… One organised an open house; still happily alive in Malaysia (I hope =P)… Huha huha on every topic that could be thought of… (gelak2, kutuk2 + add kicap, sos and anything available, haha)… Also had a ride on a special vehicle (kuang2) with the not-to-be-mentioned driver (another haha)… flying without wing with a sore on the back… my first and never-ever final ride, I hope… (macam nak belajar je, hurm)

Move on to the gila part… Test, Lab Practical, Lab Write-up, one-on-one interview (just finished).. hailoh2… when will all this madness end~ thank God the test and interview ( the most feared of) were Quite ok… again, adding kicap, sos and everything...

Myself: fareez~ nak fly ke x nak?
My other self: nak2….
Myself: belaja la leklok
My other self: Ala~ malas la…
Myself: Nak fly ke x nak ni~?
My other self: Yela2~

Huhu, the never-ending conflict inside… Laptop, Summit, so on and so forth… when to turn on the rajin-mode, eh? Xpe2~ Boleh2~

When something is too heavy to bear, laugh and cry~ the world is ready again for you~~~

Wallahua’lam~~~

kala malam..

kala 3 pagi,
rehat-rehat minda yang kusut,

kulihat,
langit hitam kemerahan,

awan selubungi hambar,

bandar dibanjiri lampu,

kudengar,
sahutan anjing berbicara nyaring,
angin menderu-deru syahdu,
alam menyanyi rentak irama,

kurasa,
duniaku pelangi malap,
diri perhati jauh,
hadapan hanya bersahaja,

haluanku masih perlu diredah, kerana hidup perlu diteruskan, walau kelam mana....

thinking cap on~

sacking is one of the most powerful tools that a boss could have...
it is to expel or get rid someone who is not capable of doing his/her duties...
however, sometimes, the boss could misuse his/her power and just expel anyone who he/she thinks doesn't fulfill his/her likings eventhough the expelled fella is a top-notch employee...

should the sacking system be abolished or the boss be removed (for the sake of the organisation)?