RACTAR

Just arrived from a voluntary work nearby (somewhere in USJ 1)…
It was exciting and I guess both parties (the volunteers and RACTAR* participants) had fun just now…
The participants gave full cooperation and the programme went smoothly…
Kudos to Lokman and Akmal as the project manager(s)…
They have done a great job in handling this programme…
Plus, thanks to Farah for saving my ass out there… A total blur moment…

It was an enjoyable and refreshing experience for me…
Everyone has their own talent and expertise…
It may take the world or even an individual to tap those hidden talents… depends~

RACTAR = rumah amal cahaya tuanku ampuan rahimah, USJ 1

of robots and opera~

watched "transformer: revenge of the fallen" yester yesternight (@ kelmarin)...

the graphics were superb...
but, i still feel lacking little here and there (i sound demanding, :P)...
couldn't find what were the loopholes... maybe the plot?

anyway, the acting by shia and megan were cute... both of them together...
one was sexy, one was talking non-stop ... excellent~

overall, 9/10 ...

>nak tgk lagi, bley?<

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currently, i have interest in phantom of the opera's songs... (the 2004 movie version)

just suddenly this fascination came into my soul... >i'm rambling<
anyway, if you want to listen to some of the song, i want to suggest one of my favourite...

"masquerade" ...

that's the title of the song...
masquerade is "an act of pretending to be someone you are not" (Macmillan English Dictinary 2002) ...
and, it is ususal potrayed in the form of "masked party" where everyone covers their faces with all sorts of masks... >entertaining<

the dances and the singings give me goosebumps...
plus, the lyric is interesting...
here's the link to youtube...

...... "hide your face so the world will never found you" .......

world~

Mad World lyrics - Adam Lambert (link)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... world

Mad world.........
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“It’s better for me not to be born into this world,
I’m only a nuisance to others; my family, my friends and many others around me,
Nothing better to expect from someone like me”

Kadangkala kita fikir kita keseorangan,
Kadangkala kita fikir tiada yang kita mampu buat,
Tapi percaya lah, kita ada keistimewaan masing2,
Yang Tuhan beri untuk kita terokai…

Terima kasih, Tuhan,
Kerana masih beri erti kehidupan kepada diri,
Yang kadangkala mahu memberi noktah dengan segera kepada pemberian itu,
Yang kadangkala buta dengan nikmat yang seribu,
Yang kadangkala tidak faham erti ujian,
Yang kadangkala sudah hilang erti kemanusiaan…

“Definition of life is defined by you, yourself”

reading~

finished reading "for one more day" by" mitch albom" <==finished in less than a day... yeay!

at first, i thought it was another boring and typical family based novel,
but it turned out otherwise...
the story was very sweet and heart-warming...

...and i must give a special credit to nadiah for allowing me to kidnap her book...
sorry babe, quite immersed in my reading, didn't realise that you had already got out of the bus, :P ...
ampun~

ecah, the book is enjoyable, i agree with you... :)

will finish "a twist in the tale" by "jeffrey archer" soon...

hurm, "tuesdays with morrie" is next, perhaps...

er, masih mencari "manikam kalbu" tulisan "faisal tehrani"... =.="

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sdar SC - congratulation on getting second...
still, i believe, first place is not impossible for u guyz...

PTM tadi amat m'sukacita'kan... :)
Olimpiad? don't ask... like usual... :P

comfort, anyone?

sometimes we need someone to comfort us
especially during hard times
when everything seems hard and uncertain...

some needs others to talk to,
just to express their feelings,
they need the words to soothe the emotion...

some needs others to feel their presence,
to know that there is someone for them to hug, to cry on & many other 'actions'...
only intimacy, no words, is needed to heal the wound...

but there are some who needs both; words and actions,
as the power of both of them, they believe, are more effective...

we have different styles in handling our lives including stress...
I may have the second version of hard-times reliever,
while others may not have the same with mine...

it is important to understand those around us as well,
as we might be one of their pillars of support,
source of help in time of need...

>the three mentioned above are not the obsolute three,
there may be others as well<
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"fasa memahami diri dan yang lain...
atau diri sendiri sahaja sudah memadai?"

buanglah segala 'sendiri',
terimalah segala 'kami'...
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>midnight ramblings<
>in the midst of solar cells<

bahagia?

khabarkan kepada ku erti kebahagiaan mu...

"pabila duit ku mencecah ketinggian langit"
"pabila yang lain semua memandang ku tinggi"
"pabila semua wanita tergila2kan aku"
"pabila semua lelaki tergoda akan kecantikan ku"
"pabila cita2 ku tercapai dengan jaya nya"

semoga kau bahagia apabila "kebahagiaan" itu telah kau dikecapi...

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homosexuality's presentation- done~ :D

next to come =>
bio practical,
phy report & presentation,
ESL sketch (man of the house),
and thousands of tests and quizzes...

ok, aku bahagia~

"hati bukan untuk dipersendakan"

hati itu perlu lagi satu,
buat lengkap baru betul2 jadi satu,
tapi hati mana yang mahu?
supaya secocok tiada retak beribu?

jodoh itu tiga cabang nya,
jodoh dari musuh,
jodoh dari jin,
jodoh dari Pencipta,
mana kamu mahu?

pabila hati sudah bertaut,
jangan dibiar tunda bertahun2,
halal kan kalau mahu,
biar tiada fitnah yang ribut...

wanita itu permata berharga,

jangan lah dikurangkan harga sendiri...

jagalah diri penuh teliti,

kerna hidup hanya sekali,
cari lah cahaya seterang2 nya,
semua boleh kalau kita mahu...

>ini sinopsis aku bagi syurga cinta<

dunia

kau ratapi satu persatu isi hatimu,
"mana pergi cinta, mana pergi sayang"
"dia tinggalkan aku, aku hanyalah picisan hidup"


kalau dia itu tuhan, memang kau layak dipanggil picisan,
tapi dia hanya manusia, yang juga penuh kelemahan,
bagai sudah terhenti rahmat cinta dari Tuhan,
satu2 nya cinta yang patut kau kejar....


orang tanya, "pejal, mana cinta kamu?"
aku jawab, "sudah hilang dibuai angin barangkali"
sambil senyman tergarit sindir...


orang tanya, "pejal, kamu hilang akal kah?"
aku jawab, "ya, kerna yang ini masih belum terisi"
sambil ku tunjuk kan jiwa yang bagai berduri...


orang tanya, "pejal, sudah celaru kah minda?"
aku jawab, "ya, kerna diri asyik memikirkan dunia"
sambil hati angguk penuh rasa malu...


Ya, dunia ini memang sementara,
tiada yang kekal tiada hakisan...

aku tetap mencari,

mencari erti harga diri,

mencari erti maksud hidup ini...

best~

pabila kejutan ditambah dengan surprise
ia jadi kejuprise...

thanx for everything...
badan penat,
minda tetap legarkan memori manis...

kamu dan kamu dan kamu,
ini mungkin tidak kerap,
tapi biar ia bukan yang terakhir...

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ye, saya selalu abstrak dalam kata2,
kerana kadang2 diri mahu berahsia,
tetapi tetap mahu berbicara....

bicara dan rahsia, bagi aku, ialah dua yang amat berbeza,
kerna itu aku letak abstrak,
sebagai penghubung mereka berdua...

maaf kerana tidak dapat menghayati kata2 aku sebaik mungkin...

merpati sejoli?

ku jadi pemerhati setia dua burung;
ku namakan mereka "merpati sejoli"...


asyik sungguh ku perhati,
merpati sejoli sungguh mesra dan intim,
aku terpikat untuk terus perhati,
untuk tahu segala erti maksud hati merpati sejoli...


ku terus, terus, terus menjadi pemerhati setia,
sampai suatu masa,
aku tangkap sahaja merpati sejoli,
masukkan dalam sangkar dan bawa ke rumah...


jangan salah anggap,
aku hanya mahu perhati,
bukan untuk menyeksa,
ku beri merpati sejoli makanan se'optimum'nya,
minuman secukup2nya...


namun,
merpati sejoli tidak serancak yang pernah ku perhati,
hanya di situ dan bertengek semata2,
bermesra seadanya,
baik, aku sudah mula bosan...


ku berkeputusan untuk melepaskan merpati sejoli,
terbanglah merpati sejoli di awan tinggi luas,
kembalilah merpati sejoli ke destinasi permulaan...


aku perhati sementara,
ouh, keindahan kembali menetap di hatiku...


ku terfikir...


kadangkala,
ada yang patut dibiarkan,
untuk keindahan kekal bersama...


kadangkala,
benda yang jauh itu manis,
benda yang dekat itu pahit...


kadangkala,
aku begitu obses untuk mengetahui,
sambil abaikan erti jiwa 'mereka' yang patut dijaga...


Burung2 itu,
kalau kamu ingat muka ku,
sudikah kamu memaafkan daku atas kekhilafan ku terlalu mengganggu hidupmu?

>post yang sudah berhabuk sebagai draft. sudah tiba masanya<