this is pain.

this is fun.

one.
you are stranded alone in an island.
watching all pass-byers neglecting your existence.
you just watch them gleefully.
you just don't realise that you are in trouble.
you are too happy with what you have right now.

two.
you are one excellent individual.
others are like shit as you perceived.
but that doesn't mean you are better than them.
perception is just a play of life.
you just want people to understand and be like you.

three.
you are my friend.
i'm your friend.
others are also your friends.
what you mean by friend is to accompany.
what i mean by friend is to love.

four.
i love you more than i love myself.
you are special.
but don't make me hate you.
you are special.
i will not judge you no more. the above are enough, i guess.

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pain is there,
not to be endured alone,
but to be shared and cherished,
with us whom you called friends. enuf said

ini dedikasi ulang tahun kelahiran

it is already midnight, malaysian time, of course...

and now, publicly and proudly and with sheer joy, i wish the most joyful 19th HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ==>

AHMAD SABQIE BIN MOHD SOFEE @ chan ...

may you really enjoy yourself on this wonderful day...
may you remember me who is still here in malaysia, :P
may you be blessed by Allah everyday , everytime...

you are a big man with a big heart, =D may future holds something special for you...

>jangan nangis, chan, muahahaha<

28th dec

venue: berjaya times square, sungei wang, low yat
time: 11.3am - 7pm
tukang teman: rifqi, acap, faiz, haikal [ejaan betul, x?]
activities:

1] sherlock holmes
amat best.
aku teruja.
mata aku sentiasa terpaku ke arah skrin.
plot, mantap.
lakonan, very enjoyable.
rating, i give this movie 9.8~10/10...

2] teman rifqi beli kasut.
penat.
lawak.
pening.
>terperinci gila mamat ni nak beli sepasang, bagus2< haha

3] jalan2 tempat lain.
:D

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lumba2~

saturday 26/12/2009

venue: besides sunway pyramid
time: 9.30pm ~ 10.30pm
event: DOLPHINS and SEA LIONS show...
price: >using family package< rm3o per person (max 2 adult, 2 children) =rm120

comment: the mammals mentioned above were cute and adorable.
the MC was the one who lightened up the show, actually. very spontaneous.
overall, FUN and enJOYable...

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owh, anda masih scroll ke bawah. saya terharu anda masih setia. terimakasih!
>maaf, saya sedikit kebosanan<

random

soalan common kalo kawan naik keta ngan aku
(when i'm the one who do the driving)...

1) ni keta apa?
mitsubishi space wagon. (i only drive this car at the moment)

2) >sambil memandang 'gear stick'< ko boleh bawa manual x?
dah x reti... (chan, bota, rifqi tengah gelak baca ni)

3) >bawa keta laju2 di selekoh< berapa kali ko amek test jpj?
twice for road, once for the 3 thingy...

4) pernah bawa kat highway, x?
sekali.

5) berapa kali accident time drive?
>diam, buat2 x dgr soalan<

ok, xde sape pernah tanya lagi soalan terakhir, dan tolong jangan tanya. :)
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i want to watch sherlock holmes... !!!
i want to have a certain future... !!!
i want to eat a lot of twister fries... !!!

the big A

i went to watch AVATAR yesterday with my beloved family members...
i was too curious why the rating on imdb.com was high (8-point-something is high. usually, good movies rate at average seven something...)
i expected a blow-your-mind-out-of-your-head experience,
and it sure did deliver!!!

the movie was awesome...
don't need to analyse much about the plot, character development and all other serious stuffs...
just sit back and immerse into the cameron's imagination and wild adventure...
you will be transported into a new world which they called Pandora and i called full-of-adrenaline excitement!!!

personally, i give overall 10/10....
highly advisable for anyone to watch...

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ku lihat burung itu terbang megah...
dari jauh ku impikan sayap yang sama...
ku cipta sedikit demi sedikit sayap ku...
namun, masih belum kukuh buat sekarang...

blur, totally~

i dunno whether to be happy or sad...
stuck in da middle, i guess...

grateful for one thing,
but worry about another...

am i being paranoid?
or am i being tactful?

at first you glow with happiness,
but then cloud of uncertainty starting to block you bit by bit,
you are just unaware and unknown of the future...

and now, i dunno how to respond to what happened...

speechless

12.00am of 16th dec, still hoping and praying for the very best of my result...
12.30am, still can't sleep... suddenly, a sms came in...

"life is 10% what happened to you and 90% how you respond to it" selamat malam~

my heart felt at peace... i carved a smile on my face...

thanks bro... you always know when to soothe my serabut-ness...
=D

14 dec

jalan2 cari hiburan~ klcc again (chan, sila jealous)...
pergi bersama2 saudara fikri...
supposely there is another person, tp ada masalah kenderaan (dimaafkan, :P) ...
summary, watched 2 movies (again)...

1)storm warriors
the characters' name were cute; cloud, wind, nameless, etc2...
the fighting scenes were excellent, plus the pusing2 angles of shooting (smart)
the way it depicted some scenes were brilliant, for me (when conquering other martial artists, for example)
but, i hate the plot... sape yg x suka citer hanging, sila jgn tgk...
the malay subtitle was hilarious...
i give around 6/10 (maybe 7 if the story is not hanging)

2)the princess and the frog
>bota berbelah bahagi nak tgk cerita ini, haha<
>si penjual tiket tgv gelak pabila aku nak tgk cerita ini, i don't care<
i laughed at most of the times >bota pun gelak2 juga, harap maklum<
each character provided unique strength to the story...
the music was fun...
i give around 8/10 ...

i'm waiting for avatar, the rating at imdb.com is quite high... (currently 8.4/10)

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result sace examination will be released tomorrow (16/12/2009) ...
wish my friends and I the best of luck... =D

good and evil~ which one? you choose~

i have finished THE BTN course needed for anyone who wants to fly...
people said it was tormenting,
i said it was fun, was an eye-opener and managed quite successfully to instill patriotism inside me~

i have asked and googled some who had gone there in the past (years ago), majority gave negative impressions while majority who went there around this year gave positive notes...
one assumption here is that BTN has changed its approach to deliver to students...
if there is really changes in methodologies and wiles, it should be applaud and praised as it has managed to change from 'creating hatred towards the programme' to 'instilling love and understanding for the nation'... with all the ruckus and chaos happening here and there, the worst that we want is a fallen nation, something that we all don't dare to see and feel (well, i dunno if there is anyone who don't even give a damn about the country but only care for ihis/her power and status)... ok, i don't want to be seen as pro something or somewhat, this is just a matter of thought and opinion... x setuju? open up a blog and write it down, thank you and harap maklum~

well, it is not perfect, nothing is... sure it has its bumps and loopholes, but we can see that they want to rectify the problems and try to satisfy the ultimate goal which is PATRIOTISM...
overall, BTN explained the importance of law (in this case, the constitution) to control and maintain peace in the country... seriously, i didn't give a thought nor care about the constitution before... everything needs a guideline to ensure smoothness in management and actions, so does this country... problems arise when some wise men or women just ratling about everything without even give some minute to refer to the guideline... this is unwise and could create a catastrophic consequence... i beg (to anyone), please be more careful in giving out any statement...

>serious pulak bunyi nya, pejal< :P

thoughts and expressions jangan di hold sangat~ luahkan kalau perlu... kalau salah, apa guna keluarga dan kawan kalau tidak perbetulkan... kan~!?

anyway, i enjoyed most of myBTN experience, but not all of them... still, it was fun... i enjoyed the physical activities the most... the repelling was thrilling... sampai kat atas menara tu, hati dah berzikir dan mulut mula bertasbih (time cuak baru nak ingat Tuhan)... time repelling, layan gile, bajet macho r dapat buat... sampai bawah, puas hati gile, rasa nak repeat lagi, tapi gasi peluang lah kat lain... kembara was laughable... it was laughable when we are the only group who went into the muddy river... what we thought as simple turn out to be challenging when the path is not followed... dah taubat tu, kambali ke jalan yang lurus dan berjaya sampai ke kem kembali... :P

LDKs; seronok... maybe sebab fasilitator kumpulan yang menarik... ada je benda nak pekena kitorang... mula muka2 serius... pas dah kena, senyum sengih2, haha... ustaz2... anda memang cool~ tapi time part serius tu, memang rasa aura belajar tu... all the activities are more on the constitution with relation to other issues... this is where we, the group members, learn... one important thing is that, you need to read a lot and try to differentiate between facts and assumptions... even my facilitator asked us not to believe him wholly and try to to think for ourselves before accepting any input or information... kita ni manusia, xkan lari dari kesilapan...
that's why we need to evaluate the pros and cons (something i still find difficult), before come out with any conclusion... bak kata orang, jangan terima bulat2... buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih supaya diri kita yang banyak kekeruhan dapat dijernihkan sedikit demi sedikit...
the last LDK was the peak of excitement... tengah syok2 gembira nyanyi2 lagu, dan kena 'jajah'... dibisukan dan diblurkan dengan jayanya.... tengah buat kerja, dan2 ada kena tangkap... memang blur la kan... tapi dalam LDK ini lah, baru dapat rasa kekitaan untuk memastikan semua berjaya... pastu, kena buat tugu, semangat berkobar-kobar tu memang dapat dirasai...

secara keseluruhannya, x rugi la pergi~ i went with a thought only to pass, but more did i get...
maybe in other camps, it was different, but in Meru, it was suprisingly superb...
thanks to all involved; tuan kamal (ketua fasilitator), ustaz khairul (tazkirah mantap, serius xkan lupa ustaz ni), ustaz arasz (my faci), pak mus, pak rani, pak dol dan pas ya (jurulatih berdedikasi dan penyeri sepanjang kursus), halim, fahmi, p-dud, syafiq, din, murni, radhwa, dinee, poje, fana, aisyah dan faizah (ahli kumpulan yang menarik dan menggembirakan) & to all others... it will be different without you guys...

> i do hope i pass the written exam, quite hard not knowing most of the part<

dec 1st

on that day, i celebrated the expiry of my student card... > :P <

i went to klcc, just to loosen up a little bit...

in brief, i watched two movies and bought two books...

new moon; many hate it but i like it...

it was much better than twilight with less awkward moments here and there...

at the least, i can feel the emotions of the story rather than irkness of the mushiness of the lines...

yeah, i cannot deny the buffness of taylor lautner a.k.a. jacob black, one of the reason i managed to stay 'alive' throughout the 130-minute movie... >just kidding, i suppose<

personally i would give 5~6 /10 for this movie...

2012; wow~!!

the CGIs were just amazing, i can even forgot that i was having a full bladder throughout the ~3- hour movie, how uneasiness can go away in times of amazement...

who doesn't like to watch everything being ripped apart and washed away? unless it happens to him/herself... >moga dijauhkan<

in my view, this movie should be rated around 7 out of 10...

then, with ample of time left, i went to kinokuniya just for sight-seeing, at first i thought...

with all those good books arounds, how could you not buy any of them...

i wandered around thriller sections; john grisham's section, to be exact...

and i decided to buy the associate...

and alang2 dah sampai kat kedai buku, baik beli dua buku, just in case i get bored and have no intention to go to anywhere to buy books, i bought another one; salahudin ayubi: penakluk jerusalem... i was influenced to buy this book after watching the kingdom of heaven...

the end of my trip, and yeah, it was a tiresome but a very enjoyable day...

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buying btn's stuff : RM110

experience you gonna get from btn: priceless~

love, as what some see it

two young people met in the middle of nowhere,
declared that they are in love,
they kept on meeting each other,
until one day they said that they want to be deeply in love,
"i have known a lot about her," one said,
"i have felt much chemistry with him," the other one said...

they met and kissed and made love,
and they felt happy with each other's presence,
"this is life," one said
"i'm in heaven," the other one said...

but, one day, they fight,
for no reason they fight,
they fight and reconcile,
they fight and reconcile,
until they had enough,
they still had the feelings, they said
but what went wrong?

"she has changed," one said,
"he is not who i met in that middle of nowhere," the other said,
eventhough love is still present in their tiny hearts,
faith has lost to nowhere,
alas, they did understand each other,
but they just didn't fully trust each other...
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apabila kamu sudah sangsi,
jangan ditabur benih benci,
segala kisah manis akan terkubur,
segala kisah pahit akan dipupuk...

tiada makna bagi dendam,
biar kan segala perasaan pergi,
tinggal kan hanya memori,
supaya hidup dapat diteruskan...

bunga bukan sekuntum,
kumbang bukan seekor,
bukankah begitu?
terpulang lah pada kamu~

itu bukan~

Kau merewang sendirian di jalan sesak,
Kau mengharap orang di sekeliling perasan kewujudan kau,
Tapi, mereka tetap sibuk dengan kerja mereka,
Kau rasa kesunyian…

Kau hanya mampu ukir senyuman,
Senyuman kecil untuk diri kau,
Kau imbas kembali memori manis lampau,
Mengharapkan semua itu berlaku kembali,
Tapi, kau hanya mampu mengharap…

Kau pandang sekitar kau,
Kau rasa sedih,
“Mana pergi teman?”
“Mana pergi kasih?”
“Sudah hilangkah semua?”
Kau tanya diri,
Tiada berjawab,
Hati kau sudah terasa sebak,
Dan kau tiada hala tuju,
Mata mula bergenang air mata…

Hidup kau perit,
Waras kau semakin pudar,
Kau teruskan jalan lemah kau,
Sampai di rumah,
Kau mencapai pisau,
Kau sudah teresak-esak,
Kau sudah hilang punca…

Kau letak pisau di pergelangan tangan,
Kau tersedu-sedu,
“Ini mungkin yang terbaik untuk hilangkan segala-galanya”
Itu sahaja yang kau mampu ujar pada diri kau…

Kau memang sudah hilang segala-galanya,
Minda kau,
Hati kau,
Jiwa kau,
… Diri kau…

Kau tekad untuk potong giliran maut kau,
Kau dah penat,
Kau pandang atas,
Tak mampu lihat diri ambil nyawa,
“Akan ku lakukan ini”
“Selamat tinggal dunia”…

Tika kau toleh atas,
Mata kau tertumpu pada buku-buku di atas rak,
Dan kau nampak Al-Quran berhabuk itu,
Hati kau bergetar,
Kau jatuhkan pisau itu,
Kau menangis lagi,
Kau duduk,
Tangan di mata,
Mahu menutupi segala memori pahit,
Kau menangisi kelemahan kau…

Bersyukurlah kamu Allah biar kamu lihat Al-Quran berhabuk itu,
Dan beri getaran keinsafan pada kamu,
Buang lah habuk pada kitab itu,
Buka lah,
…dan hayati lah…
...dan amal lah...
Dan moga tenang hati kamu…

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Semua masalah ada penyelesaian,
Tapi maut bukan jalan nya,
Dan itu bukan kerja kamu...

Bahu aku masih kering,
Kalau kamu mahu basahkan dengan air mata kamu,
Kalau kamu mahu~

digital fortress

digital fortress, a novel written by the famous dan brown...



the writing is excellent; i was totally absorbed into the story and felt what the characters were going through...
the intense part made my heart beat wild...
and i really like the flow of the story where the author guided me through all these different places without me getting lost...

>one of the good books to occupy me during these boring moments< :)

thank you~

i would like to thank my lecturers:

biology: ms koh & ms param
chemistry: ms adeline tan & mr yap
english as second language studies: ms juliene, puan zaidah, puan salina & ms ting
mathematical studies: ms piriya
physics: puan sofina & ms tan we wee

for helping me to survive those 18 months of pain and suffering (exaggerating, i know, but who cares) of South Australian Matriculation...

without you guys, my life would be extra miserable...


and i would also like to thank my housemates:

haikal (roomie-you survived with me, thank God, =P)
syakir
syaukat
syuaib
muhaimin
halim

and my classmates, jOneights

for really brighten up my life during those dark hours...


also to others who really help and guide me along my journey...

thank you for being able to be patience with this immature, senseless, selfish and helpless little boy, >.< ...

there is a deeper ocean we need to sail on later,
but, hey, cherish the present....


fikri @ bota, sabqie @ chan, rifqi @ qari,

you three really make me really want to strive for the very best
as you three have already and still creating your victorous moments...
trully, you three are my living heroes...


and my greatest motivation will always be my family
who has supported me throughout my life
come high or low...
=D

life is never easy,
but with you guys, it's a breeze...

accident

met with a minor motor accident last monday after my biology's paper
just have some bruises here and there, nothing serious...

a little bit 'tempang' due to the bandage around my right knee...

don't worry, kay~

some rest and i'll be hitting those malls after that... :)

the joy and pain... :)

at last, the exam ended yesterday...
chemistry was not that bad, but still, it wasn't that grand...
>lenguh~< =P
my bittersweet 18 months in Taylor's has also ended,
but, in a way i have never thought of...
haha...
enjoying my quiet two months of holiday...
before the real stress starts next year...
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ini takdir~
we can never blame it,
we only have ourselves to put the blame on...
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we can never blame others for the fault that they never did....
it is beyond our will to not let it happened...
afterall, we are His tiny servant, we are bounded by His rules and orders...
and whatever He has decided for us...

just let it go...

life is short, live it to the fullest...

do we know what lay for us tomorrow...?
>who knows<

exam~

3 down, 2 more to go...

english as second language studies (checked)

physics (checked)

mathematical studies (checked)

biology (waiting)

chemistry (really can't wait to sit for this paper)

>praying and hoping for the best<

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if you keep on searching for my bad,

just seek the devil, it will be much more easier for you to find one...

this final moment~

sprint, baby, sprint...!!!

a little bit more before reaching to the end...

patience, please be with until the end...

faith, guide me to the right lane...

peace, please shove those hurdles away...

i always hope for a clear ending, but it sometimes full of bumps and potholes...

however, it should never be a problem because i always face them in my life...

understand, strategise and launch full scale attack...

(sometimes, retreat a step doesn't mean that you're weak,

you are smart enough not to get yourself killed)

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kamu semua, terima kasih dan maaf atas segalanya~

aku penuh kehinaan, tapi kamu pandang aku bagai penuh kemuliaan...

aku banyak cacat celanya, tapi kamu hanya pandang pada yang sempurna...

pabila aku buat silap, kamu tegur aku dengan penuh hemah...

kamu tahu bila itu perlu dan tidak...

aku tetap akan jadi aku, dan kamu paham lalu menerima...

kamu tetap kamu, dan aku tetap suka...

kita banyak beza, tapi tetap bersama...

terima kasih Tuhan, kerana hadirkan dia dan dia dan dia dalam hidup ku... =D

aku dan kamu

i dream to dream,
of something that makes me happy...

i dream to live,
a happy life filled with only breeze...

i dream to sleep,
to have only sweet dream in it...

can i dream forever?
dream that is nothing but eternality?
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aku rantau sepelusuk jiwa,
mencari dan mencari,
kehilangan diri...

aku selongkar seluruh minda,
mencari dan mencari,
kewarasan diri...

aku selongkar seluruh jasad,
mencari dan mencari,
kesucian diri...

masihkan wujudkah erti diri,
dalam diri ini?
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i can hear his sighs,
for all the trouble the world has caused him,

i can listen his rantings,
for all the headaches he is having,

i can watch his face,
for all the expressions that he potrayed,

i can look into his eyes,
for all the tears that drop to his heart,

but, i can only be me,
helping him with all that i can give,

in the end, it is only he,
who can really help him...

random

do watch the 15 malaysia's movies...
very enlightening...

my favourite lines,
"dead babies, infected feet, diseased throats, lung cancer,
it's like happy meal collectible,you collect them all! i like this!"
-about the NO-to-smoking campaign-

kepak~

said bye2 to Chan yesternight...
he was off to india to read medicine...
best of luck and wishes to you, Chan...
May you prosper in your life there...

>BotA! thanx for the ride< =D
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on the other hand,
i'm still struggling to get a place in an Australian/New Zealand unviversity...
medicine is tough, but that will not dishearten me from further pursuing this pathway...
after studying 3 semesters in SAM, now i know where i stand...
i need to work harder to be on par with others if i want to become a successful doctor in the future...

>hoping and praying<

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don't say, just do~!!

SAM

I'm hating SAM day by day, and trial worsen this uneasiness....

but, i will not fail~

-to learn is to love-

i always ask myself, why must everything in this course be hard?

or is it just me that my own life difficult...?

everything must be handled smoothly during this final hours...

i need to have more control of myself and my life,

to create magic out of tragic,

and to be more responsible in what i do...

hey, i do learn something (more to "a lot of things") from SAM...

indeed, everything has its two sides of the coin...

lets mould love from hatred~

quotations>

1. ala, u're a underdog, u'll exceed anyone's expectation in the end...

2.woi, xkan nk give up skrg, mana pergi fareez aku nih...

3.they pressure us, that's true, but they love us like heaven, which is extremely true...

4.sebab aku sayang ko, aku ketuk kepala ko skrg...

thanks and loves~

lady gaga

her performance in vma 2009 really opened up my eyes towards this very unique singer...
she has this 'weirdness' that can attract you to her, very closely~
her song, paparazzi, is my new addiction, for now~
who knows what she will bring in the near future...

my favourite, the bloody show in vma...
not many can put up this kind of performance...
she didn't seem to care what people say, all she wanted is to entertain....
click here to youtube...
not quite clear, pardon me, this video is...
if you have time, try search for a clearer one...

and this one is her singing live (piano version)
click here to youtube...
this one astonished me, really...
you can listen to the genuinity of her voice...

ok, this may sound a little bit exaggarated...
but hey, she deserves the recognition...
peace...

hurm

can't wait for hlovate's new novel : versus.
will be out in november, as i heard~
right timing, just about after me finishing my final <- reading in peace...

raya was like usual, brief and enjoyable...
for those who i haven't wished yet, SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
sorry for my ignorance...

cannot put away the thought of sitting for the final for even a second...
please let this ends happily ....

i'm babbling and rambling~

ppl~

tetibe rasa lapang skit,
:P

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when you keep on blaming others for your own failure,
you have already set your own path of failure....

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owh, final will start on 2/11...
:O

find me only in the library after this... >cough2<

long hiatus, was~

at last, i'm partially free...
trial exam was not that grand for me, but it won't stop me from going to australia...
have tremendously high hope to study there...
again, not going to raya-ing much this year...
want to organise my notes during this coming one-week holiday...
serious mode, on~

but before that, let us enjoy a bit, just a bit...
this week really has drained my fun energy...
need to recharge myself, first, before any furhter 'rehabilitation'...

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just in case i forget,
SELAMAR HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!
forgive all my wrongdoings, inside out....
:)

is there still hope out there?
who knows~

laju-ing

ramadan has arrived~
welcome~~~
hoping to become a better person...
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a quotation taken from an article posted on the wall at ampang park's surau...
"Not to get more but be more"

simple yet meaningful...
life is not purely on what you get in return,
it's basically what you become in the very end...

the very best, we can only hope...

keta

fear of round about...
still can't find the exact term...
for now i call it "rodophobia"...

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driving record..
still getting honked at least once for every driving...
excellent~

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meditating; "plz make me a good driver"...

break~

several things to do during this short break...

1)read "torn apart" by james patterson (done)
2)make physics notes for chapter 12 & 13 (baru start)
3)read chem notes (dunno when to start)
4)finish up IDS (another last minute thing to do, i guess)


Torn apart is a really good read especially for those who are in search for a 'motivational + story' type of book...

it is a true story about a boy named Cory who has tourette syndrome (go google the term) and how he faced all his problems until he managed to beat all odds...

serius cerita ni smart... plus, the book was written together with Hal Friedman (Cory's dad)... this gives a deeper emotion to the writing...

>thanx babe for the book<
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others act as mirrors to reflect your real self....

lift~

7 o'clock on a friday morning, at the 7th floor....

"i'm just a little bit 'caught' in the lift,
hard to reach the guard,
they talking nonsense,
i had nowhere to go,
thank God there were roomie and Ray,
didn't feel alone"

try singing it to Lenka's The Show tune...
>not quite like the original song, but who cares< =P that was another moment at casa subang... >smiling to the short memory<
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ever wondered why sometimes you felt the world has something against you?
well, it's just YOU~ stop blaming the world, she is innocent...

fikirku kini~

kadangkala kita terpedaya dengan erti "kejayaan"...

kadangkala kita lebih percaya dengan erti "musibah"...

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kau mahu percaya dunia itu selamat,

tapi kau baru dengar ada pembunuhan di seberang sana,

sekarang kau skeptikal dengan semua di sekeliling...

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"we're all addicted to our past" (sophie 2009)

...and i'm craving for a future~

rawakz~

"we want to hug someone, just wanna know someone is there" (cameron 2009)

ooo~ bonie wright is sweet and cute...

lying is never a good option to defy order, not saying anything is better...
sometimes, i'm being too thick to differentiate reality from fantasy...

the sacrifices someone who love you has made to you is blurry on your eyes and in your mind,
until one day the unexpected thing happens, the blow-your-head-off moment occurs,
you then realise...
>then you ramble throughout the day and night, "oh why didn't i realise earlier, SHOOT"<

kepada sesiapa> kalo dah sayang, gaduh camne pun, bertaut balik... x gitu? =P

...

"ko ingat ko berjaya sebab ko hebat?"
"Allah yang gasi semua tu, ko ingat tu"

>silent mode for a moment<

-read the two lines from a blog-

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"aku x kisah dia buat camtu kat aku,
aku paham dia x bermaksud"

how a friend sometimes ignore his own feelings just to satisfy your own...

hurm~

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i declare myself lost~

...and don't want to be found for a while

today~

lesson learnt: don't assume others will react the same way as you do~
our assumed little cute prank can be seen as an insult to others...
only do to those who know you well...
>well, everyone is different, cannot blame that<

even though sometimes we do things involuntary (reflex, perhaps),
it will never be a concrete reason if we accidentally do without realising it...
it just portrays the real you...

self-restraint mode, i guess...

>missing the buddies already, cepatlah 1 ogos<

owh, 28-30 july is our BIO moment...
test, practical and maybe, write-up...

~Feeling homesick out of a sudden~

of sunway and SAM...

it is not good for digestion to have...
-pop corn for lunch and,
-something unknown to your body for dinner...

=.= thank God my tummy is tough enough~

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second interview; so-so...
phy + math test; (@.@)

focusing on bio~

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not all will happen the way we want them to happen...
it just happens...

Peace

sometimes, teenage life is not as easy as one thinks...
sometimes, this phase is forcing you too much...
sometimes, you just don't understand what life is...

thanks God,
for giving me a family to rely on...
for giving me friends to count on...
for giving me the chance to live on...

You give me bitterness,
for me to appreciate the taste of sweetness...

You give me hardships,
for me to persevere to the very end...

You give me short period of darkness,
for me to search for the everlasting light...

Showing and guiding is better than giving~
He knows what's the best for us...

mini-synopsis

cinta kau dan aku:

"kalau herdikan itu datang dari dia yang amat disayangi,

amat terkesan lah kata-kata itu dalam hati dan jiwa"

manikam kalbu:

"pakaian bukan sekadar menutupi apa yang perlu,

tapi juga untuk memberi identiti yang patut"

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ok2, too much novels....

nanti aku gasi mini-sinopsis tentang fizik, matematik dan biologi pula, kay~?

klcc

babe,
thanx for this...


and this...


still x abeh ma... :P

thoughts

when someone ask me about my opinion on the PPSMI's change of policy, this is what i think...
this is something that a government should thoroughly think about before making any decision...
this should be applied to all policies...
imagine, millions "ka-ching2" @ $$ have been poured and showered for the sake of the PPSMI-textboooks, laptops, seminars, yada2 & etc2, and suddenly you want to change it back to the BM... why even bother to change it in the first place... speaking of "berjimat-cermat", sigh~ now, millions more needed for the reversal...

and now, some say that we were the guinea pigs or the lab white mice for the PPSMI...
Frankly speaking, i don't mind being one... well, for me lah~
Not having difficulties to understand P&P in english sure gave me a breeze moment in classes and it helps me in college as well... (no need to mind-translate everything)
"er, apa pengamiran dalam English, eh?"
imagine needing to do that every hour in classes...

but, how about those who are having hard times understanding P&P in English?
how do they cope with this PPSMI?
maybe the government revert the policy due to this major problem...
maybe (5x), it's not the time yet for the PPSMI....
need to ensure , first, that all students can at least understand what is happening during the P&P in English...
then, PPSMI can be implemented properly... (will they even think about establishing PPSMI back?)

anyway, why did Tun Mahathir propose this idea?
refer to this...
he had quite strong reasons for it...
and he had shown that his ideas are always fruitful...
well, enough said...

~wishing well for the Malaysian education system~

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can't wait for harry potter...

owh, next week got ESL internal assessment... brilliant~!!
ok, let say them out loud,
"assuming adult responsibility will not turn Flurry into an adult overnight" and,
"DON'T step on the butterfly"...

4 july '09

went to sdar open day...

arrived at kl central around 9.15 am, met bota and get ready to go to pasar seni..
met cola, kepeng and syahiran along the way...
together we went to pasar seni and took a bus to seremban (terminal one, to be precised)...

chan fetched us and hatta (tambun is already with chan) and the journey to sdar began...

met up with teachers and sdarians...
seriously, my memory is deteriorating; couldn't remember my juniors' names =.="
segan kot.. :P
anyway, i love the conversations with the teachers...
glad to know that they are in a good state of health...
afterall, their happinesses are my happiness as well...
*the same goes for my family*

around 5.00pm, returned back to kl by bus...
had dinner with bota at kl central and headed back to casa...

i am exhausted yet satisfied with today's activities...

"u r happy when ur happiness is shared with those who care"
thanx for the day...

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we can never predict the future...
but we can always anticipate it...

care while still last~

sometimes we tend to ignore those who care for us,
when they are still by our sides...

but, when they are far from us,
then, we really appreciate their presences before...

crying to God,
"Oh please return him/her to me,
let me have my last chance with him/her,
let me show him/her my upmost gratitude towards him/her"

by then, your time has ended...

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by this time, i just finished my interview...

RACTAR

Just arrived from a voluntary work nearby (somewhere in USJ 1)…
It was exciting and I guess both parties (the volunteers and RACTAR* participants) had fun just now…
The participants gave full cooperation and the programme went smoothly…
Kudos to Lokman and Akmal as the project manager(s)…
They have done a great job in handling this programme…
Plus, thanks to Farah for saving my ass out there… A total blur moment…

It was an enjoyable and refreshing experience for me…
Everyone has their own talent and expertise…
It may take the world or even an individual to tap those hidden talents… depends~

RACTAR = rumah amal cahaya tuanku ampuan rahimah, USJ 1

of robots and opera~

watched "transformer: revenge of the fallen" yester yesternight (@ kelmarin)...

the graphics were superb...
but, i still feel lacking little here and there (i sound demanding, :P)...
couldn't find what were the loopholes... maybe the plot?

anyway, the acting by shia and megan were cute... both of them together...
one was sexy, one was talking non-stop ... excellent~

overall, 9/10 ...

>nak tgk lagi, bley?<

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currently, i have interest in phantom of the opera's songs... (the 2004 movie version)

just suddenly this fascination came into my soul... >i'm rambling<
anyway, if you want to listen to some of the song, i want to suggest one of my favourite...

"masquerade" ...

that's the title of the song...
masquerade is "an act of pretending to be someone you are not" (Macmillan English Dictinary 2002) ...
and, it is ususal potrayed in the form of "masked party" where everyone covers their faces with all sorts of masks... >entertaining<

the dances and the singings give me goosebumps...
plus, the lyric is interesting...
here's the link to youtube...

...... "hide your face so the world will never found you" .......

world~

Mad World lyrics - Adam Lambert (link)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... world

Mad world.........
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“It’s better for me not to be born into this world,
I’m only a nuisance to others; my family, my friends and many others around me,
Nothing better to expect from someone like me”

Kadangkala kita fikir kita keseorangan,
Kadangkala kita fikir tiada yang kita mampu buat,
Tapi percaya lah, kita ada keistimewaan masing2,
Yang Tuhan beri untuk kita terokai…

Terima kasih, Tuhan,
Kerana masih beri erti kehidupan kepada diri,
Yang kadangkala mahu memberi noktah dengan segera kepada pemberian itu,
Yang kadangkala buta dengan nikmat yang seribu,
Yang kadangkala tidak faham erti ujian,
Yang kadangkala sudah hilang erti kemanusiaan…

“Definition of life is defined by you, yourself”

reading~

finished reading "for one more day" by" mitch albom" <==finished in less than a day... yeay!

at first, i thought it was another boring and typical family based novel,
but it turned out otherwise...
the story was very sweet and heart-warming...

...and i must give a special credit to nadiah for allowing me to kidnap her book...
sorry babe, quite immersed in my reading, didn't realise that you had already got out of the bus, :P ...
ampun~

ecah, the book is enjoyable, i agree with you... :)

will finish "a twist in the tale" by "jeffrey archer" soon...

hurm, "tuesdays with morrie" is next, perhaps...

er, masih mencari "manikam kalbu" tulisan "faisal tehrani"... =.="

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sdar SC - congratulation on getting second...
still, i believe, first place is not impossible for u guyz...

PTM tadi amat m'sukacita'kan... :)
Olimpiad? don't ask... like usual... :P

comfort, anyone?

sometimes we need someone to comfort us
especially during hard times
when everything seems hard and uncertain...

some needs others to talk to,
just to express their feelings,
they need the words to soothe the emotion...

some needs others to feel their presence,
to know that there is someone for them to hug, to cry on & many other 'actions'...
only intimacy, no words, is needed to heal the wound...

but there are some who needs both; words and actions,
as the power of both of them, they believe, are more effective...

we have different styles in handling our lives including stress...
I may have the second version of hard-times reliever,
while others may not have the same with mine...

it is important to understand those around us as well,
as we might be one of their pillars of support,
source of help in time of need...

>the three mentioned above are not the obsolute three,
there may be others as well<
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"fasa memahami diri dan yang lain...
atau diri sendiri sahaja sudah memadai?"

buanglah segala 'sendiri',
terimalah segala 'kami'...
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>midnight ramblings<
>in the midst of solar cells<

bahagia?

khabarkan kepada ku erti kebahagiaan mu...

"pabila duit ku mencecah ketinggian langit"
"pabila yang lain semua memandang ku tinggi"
"pabila semua wanita tergila2kan aku"
"pabila semua lelaki tergoda akan kecantikan ku"
"pabila cita2 ku tercapai dengan jaya nya"

semoga kau bahagia apabila "kebahagiaan" itu telah kau dikecapi...

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homosexuality's presentation- done~ :D

next to come =>
bio practical,
phy report & presentation,
ESL sketch (man of the house),
and thousands of tests and quizzes...

ok, aku bahagia~

"hati bukan untuk dipersendakan"

hati itu perlu lagi satu,
buat lengkap baru betul2 jadi satu,
tapi hati mana yang mahu?
supaya secocok tiada retak beribu?

jodoh itu tiga cabang nya,
jodoh dari musuh,
jodoh dari jin,
jodoh dari Pencipta,
mana kamu mahu?

pabila hati sudah bertaut,
jangan dibiar tunda bertahun2,
halal kan kalau mahu,
biar tiada fitnah yang ribut...

wanita itu permata berharga,

jangan lah dikurangkan harga sendiri...

jagalah diri penuh teliti,

kerna hidup hanya sekali,
cari lah cahaya seterang2 nya,
semua boleh kalau kita mahu...

>ini sinopsis aku bagi syurga cinta<

dunia

kau ratapi satu persatu isi hatimu,
"mana pergi cinta, mana pergi sayang"
"dia tinggalkan aku, aku hanyalah picisan hidup"


kalau dia itu tuhan, memang kau layak dipanggil picisan,
tapi dia hanya manusia, yang juga penuh kelemahan,
bagai sudah terhenti rahmat cinta dari Tuhan,
satu2 nya cinta yang patut kau kejar....


orang tanya, "pejal, mana cinta kamu?"
aku jawab, "sudah hilang dibuai angin barangkali"
sambil senyman tergarit sindir...


orang tanya, "pejal, kamu hilang akal kah?"
aku jawab, "ya, kerna yang ini masih belum terisi"
sambil ku tunjuk kan jiwa yang bagai berduri...


orang tanya, "pejal, sudah celaru kah minda?"
aku jawab, "ya, kerna diri asyik memikirkan dunia"
sambil hati angguk penuh rasa malu...


Ya, dunia ini memang sementara,
tiada yang kekal tiada hakisan...

aku tetap mencari,

mencari erti harga diri,

mencari erti maksud hidup ini...

best~

pabila kejutan ditambah dengan surprise
ia jadi kejuprise...

thanx for everything...
badan penat,
minda tetap legarkan memori manis...

kamu dan kamu dan kamu,
ini mungkin tidak kerap,
tapi biar ia bukan yang terakhir...

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ye, saya selalu abstrak dalam kata2,
kerana kadang2 diri mahu berahsia,
tetapi tetap mahu berbicara....

bicara dan rahsia, bagi aku, ialah dua yang amat berbeza,
kerna itu aku letak abstrak,
sebagai penghubung mereka berdua...

maaf kerana tidak dapat menghayati kata2 aku sebaik mungkin...

merpati sejoli?

ku jadi pemerhati setia dua burung;
ku namakan mereka "merpati sejoli"...


asyik sungguh ku perhati,
merpati sejoli sungguh mesra dan intim,
aku terpikat untuk terus perhati,
untuk tahu segala erti maksud hati merpati sejoli...


ku terus, terus, terus menjadi pemerhati setia,
sampai suatu masa,
aku tangkap sahaja merpati sejoli,
masukkan dalam sangkar dan bawa ke rumah...


jangan salah anggap,
aku hanya mahu perhati,
bukan untuk menyeksa,
ku beri merpati sejoli makanan se'optimum'nya,
minuman secukup2nya...


namun,
merpati sejoli tidak serancak yang pernah ku perhati,
hanya di situ dan bertengek semata2,
bermesra seadanya,
baik, aku sudah mula bosan...


ku berkeputusan untuk melepaskan merpati sejoli,
terbanglah merpati sejoli di awan tinggi luas,
kembalilah merpati sejoli ke destinasi permulaan...


aku perhati sementara,
ouh, keindahan kembali menetap di hatiku...


ku terfikir...


kadangkala,
ada yang patut dibiarkan,
untuk keindahan kekal bersama...


kadangkala,
benda yang jauh itu manis,
benda yang dekat itu pahit...


kadangkala,
aku begitu obses untuk mengetahui,
sambil abaikan erti jiwa 'mereka' yang patut dijaga...


Burung2 itu,
kalau kamu ingat muka ku,
sudikah kamu memaafkan daku atas kekhilafan ku terlalu mengganggu hidupmu?

>post yang sudah berhabuk sebagai draft. sudah tiba masanya<

ketupat cinta

finished reading faisal tehrani's ketupat cinta (musim pertama)...

intriguing islamic reading...
interesting malay reading...

excellent sarcasm...
brave criticism on the malay history...

quite dizzy with the plot at first, but managed to understand it at the end...
this writing is for a good laugh, also for a deep understanding about life (past and present)....

waiting for ketupat cinta (musim kedua)... >or is it in bookstore already?<

alia gasi award~ lala

1) Copy award di atas untuk di letakkan di blog anda.
(boleh rujuk di blog "alia gila liverpool" untuk lihat award)

2) Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini.
-gila liverpool
-classmate tika sekolah rendah (darjah 6)
-suka sakat orang (akan ku risau kalo dia x buat ni walaupun seketika)
-gila benci Man U
-cool

3) Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi sendiri.
-suka tidur
-tidak tonton bola (most of the time)
-suka novel
-masih cuba untuk suka buku SAM
-pendiam
-pemalu
-penyegan
-comel (sila abaikan)
-tengah cuba untuk jadi seorang doktor
-dulu hendak jadi akauntan

4) Anda perlu memilih beberapa (dia restrict 10, x mau ikut) Penerima Award seterusnya & describe tentang mereka.
-alia (x salah kan beri award ni balik... dia cool dan rajin update blog, saya suka)
-bidin (sempoi)
-piqa (no words are filtered, suka)
-acap (insaf seketika)
-fikri (boleh jadi wakil rakyat kalau mahu)
-mariana sensei (kesedaran tentang hidup)
-rifqi (dewa)
-chan (momel, sila update blog, haha)
-aqila (blog dia menarik)
-manissa (english standard mana x tau r, need dictionary at times)
-muhaimin (ini juga boleh jadi wakil rakyat, mungkin nak ikut style mahathir, haha)
-syaukat (diam2 ubi berisi)

tak perlu buat "tag" ini... harap maklum

novel

finished reading jefrey archer's first among equal...

the battle among 4 politicians to become the prime minister...
coolio~
i think our politicians need to read that book, highly suggested...

>i always envy writers who can write; they can move the world<
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going to sdar, taking spm cert...
mixed feeling, i guess~

music~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys

lovely~

piano + cello...
a mix of "love story" and "viva la vida"

>found out the link the from a blog, thanx to the owner<

frenz, k?

friends are individuals who we are comfortable with...
friends are those who can say "dude, i may not be a help, but plz share the probs with me"...
friends are individuals who bring light to your gloomy day...
friends are those who can say "babe, i may not solve your prob, but plz cry on my shoulders"...

does a friend says, "dude, you will do well", but in the end he curses when you do better than him?
does a friend says all the beautiful words in front of you, but at your back he tears you into pieces?

friend: we fight at times, does that mean we are not meant to be friend?
pejal: yes, we fight the hell out of us ... But we reconcile the bond, we accept each other weaknesses and doesn't that bring the real meaning of friendship between us...?

let it be rethorical~

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sy(i)au: thanx for the words
pejal: ceratainly =.= ahakz

tenang lah~

insan itu berduka,
kerana hidup bermuka-muka,
diri bagai sudah penat,
dengan jiwa bagai ralat...

keluhan kedengaran sedikit,
meratapi nasib kurang menarik,
perhati hidup mereka senang,
"ouh, aku juga mahu terbang"...

kau anggap semua berliku,
sedangkan diri yang masih terpaku,
buka minda seluas2nya,
mungkin ada harapan nyata...

cari mana hilang sayap mu,
yang dulu mekar memacu,
kalau musnah bina semula,
tiada cahaya datang bersahaja...

mean?

hearing those cheers,
listening to avril's,
reading chemistry,

gazing at sky,
watching 'little' people from above,

reminiscing the past,
hoping for a prosper future...

can i find the real meaning behind all these?

itu~

ku pandang awan kala pagi,
ku pandang bintang kala malam,
mindaku kosong,
hatiku tenang...

sibuk jalan kala pagi,
bising salakan kala malam,
mindaku kabut,
hatiku celaru...

dunia ini ada baik buruk,
tiada yang suci putih,
tiada yang kotor hitam,
semua kelabu...

kau mahu kelabu pekat atau cair?

calm~

stop worrying for something that hasn't happened,
you have lots of other things to worry about...

=.="

curses to "little2 twinkle star"~
=.=

understanding the topic
communication of the understanding
organisation of communication

craps all the way~

lala~

Nothing beats a good book and a tropicana twister when boredom strikes.

hold on~

learn to fall,
if you want to feel the real meaning of success...

true~

sometimes,
you take something for granted,
you deem it as yours forever...

but,
once you've lost it,
you shout to the sky,
"LIFE IS UNFAIR"...

typical~

searching is not easy,
but get a hold on something is harder,
that's success...

it needs..
hard work,
determination,
and effort...

fall once,
doesn't mean you cannot get up on your feet,
and continue your journey...

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life is not perfect,
but having those who are dear to you, that's perfect enough~
still have someone who you can trust by your side,
isn't that a success?

it depends on how you want to see it~

>ideas extracted from rooftop rant-hlovate<

sweet and quiet birthday~

haha...
what more can you ask
when you celebrate it with your beloved ones (family + friends)
in a nice place to have fun...

thanks to those who wished...
highly appreciated...

dudes and babes,
you guyz are the best...

>cheers, the world is never enough,
yet we make it as if it is already full<

medicine is a hard course, i know...
i'm heading to experiencing it~
i can feel the heat from this chilly room...
regretting?
haha, no turning back, face it or leave it all...

mahsuri~

went to istana budaya yesterday with my friends...
watched mahsuri, a fauziah nawi's production...

story-telling begins...

part 1: to the palace

ran away from casa at 5.15 pm..
hopped into a rapid at around 5.30pm...
pics-taking inside the this-is-ours bus throughout the journey until we arrived at kl sentral at ~6.50 pm...
had a very light dinner and glide with monorail after that (stopped at titiwangsa) and took a cab to istana budaya...
prayed to God (maghrib) and pics-taking until the gate opened...
>gambar dua orang itu amat cute, don't naughty2 today<

part 2: the 'fiesta'

tears shed from her eyes...
heart beated enthusiastically as the orchestra rocked the ground...
smiles on those happy faces...

it was inspiring...
at last, i managed to watched a theater...
hoping to watch PGL after this...

part 3: the return

thanks to ecah's dad for giving us (syafiq, halim and i) a ride to the monorail...
rapid to USJ...
ate at mydin's mamak... (my stomach felt so grateful for the food)
slept with a grin...


> still remember what beliau had said... time to let go of the past... grow up!<

randoms~

"let him have his own wings"


"you are controlled and blinded by your own lust"


"nothing is purer than to forgive the past and learn the future"


"you're talking like a slut who knows everything yet know nothing"


"to love is not to have all but to give all"


"yeah, you're right, you are totally wrong !!"


"lie to the world that you assume have lied to you"


"seriously, don't you know how to be serious?"

>.<

"nak buat camne, dah memang kamu dihantar untuk belajar, belajar je la kan...
xpe, it pays off later on... sometimes, you work better under pressure...
anything ask me, k?"

hurm, i surely have no objection on that, sis...
you are my best example...
just follow the 'acuan' la kan? =P

i always say this to myself,
"let excel with style, fareez...
you do not need all those hard works"

now, it is better to say,
"let put more force on that momentum, fareez...
just several months to go before finish this mini-journey...
have faith in yourself, k?"

:)

sis, you are the best, always...
thanks~

let drain the tears and fill that empty soul with the words of wisdom...
my soul may be half empty, but it is already half-full...

a note from him to him...

let the past be the past that strengthen the present...
everyone makes mistakes...
that is the main definition of human...

let mistakes be forgiven if not forgotten,
as they teach us about life...
as they are why people be more careful and mature...

let we remain united and bold...
we are in this together...
never let anyone stranded in their dark past...

dear,
thank you for accepting the apology,
for it is the greatest gift you have ever given...
your patience is the highest virtue... thank you~

know

dignity is an entity that need to be uphold.
it is your strength and might.
it is your pride and soul.
losing it, you're forever doom.

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when people think that they are in love, actually, they are just messing with their feelings.
they only believe love is all about happiness and lust. there is more to that.
love is a sacred emotion that should encompass all:
care, understanding, gratitude, sacrifice, pain, sadness; to name a few.
when you are not ready to feel all of these, don't hasten.
it is afraid that love could haunt your future.

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do we still have the dignity if we breach the sacredness of love?

ku mahu kamu~

depaan mata ku meluas,
meliar melihat mangsa,
mereka bakal teman ku,
sekutu dalam kekhilafan...

ajakan dalam dilema,
takut hanyutan deras,
bisikan ku halus menerpa,
hati goyah nya ditetapkan...

seronok bukan kepalang,
diri nya terasa lengkap,
dari jauh ku tertawa,
kutukan syukur iringi nya...

tugas ku sampai akhir nya,
cari teman di alam sana,
siapa aku kau tanya,
aku penghasut durjana...

kau tahu ku wujud,
kau tahu ku celaka,

tapi,

kau tetap sudi bersahabat,
kau tetap sudi bersama...

kutukan padu kepada mu...

ku x paham diri~

langit tinggi indah,
ku hulur tangan kerdil,
ouh, tak tergapai,
aku sedar aku siapa...

laut biru damai,
ku jejakkan kaki satu,
ouh, dalam nya,
aku sedar aku siapa...

tapi,

kini ku lihat awan di tepi,
berehat senang di kerusi ku,
mungkin ku tak mampu belai awan,
namun, ku mampu berada setaraf...

kini ku lihat laut di keliling ku,
sambil bayu tampar lembut pipiku,
mungkin aku tak mampu selam jauh,
namun, ku mampu menongkah arus hebat...

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aku mungkin tidak mampu untuk jadi sahabat rapat kau,
biarlah aku tidak jadi musuh ketat kau...

aku mungkin tidak mampu menyelesaikan masalah kau,
biarlah aku berada di tepi kau, beri dorongan semata...

aku mungkin tidak sehebat lelaki2 gagah di sana,
biarlah aku di sini, semoga kau bahagia...

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nada melankolik hanyalah nada semata-mata,
yang penting, isi dikuis dan ditatang...

bukan mengharap menjadi berlian dalam serpihan kaca bersepah,
hanya tidak mahu menjadi nila dalam susu sebekas...

--- jika jiwa bergetar tika baca,
anggap tulisan ini hanya angin halus yang singgah seketika ---

it's his fault...

"don't blame others
for your own failure"
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"How can you fail your test?"

"*sigh* my lecturer doesn't know how to teach me properly"
-or, is it ....
"i don't know how to manage my study effectively"
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Does an individual who is always in a state of denial (denying own weaknesses) always succeed in his or her life...?
is it okay to put the fault on others while the real problem is in you...?

imagine you are walking down a road...
while happily and gleefully enjoying your own time, there is a big rock in front of you...
you have two choice...
whether to:
1) think of a way to get through or over or around the rock...
or...
2)wait hopefully for someone to come to the rescue and remove the rock for you...

some may say, "what family and friends for?"

it is okay to get help from others but you must, first, know what is the problem...

don't expect others to explain to you from A-Z...

you must, at least, know the ABC or even "what are alphabets?"...

the more you know, the least you have to depend to others...

but surely, it is hard to totally depend on your will and might...

this is where others come into the picture...

they may help you to understand how to get to the destination...

then, everything is up to you whether you want to go or not...

they cannot force you to go there....

the REAL FORCE is in YOU...

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"You are what you are"

not

"You are what others are"

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sometimes, watching others from below (not literally, mind you!!) is a great opportunity to bring out the best in you... learn from them and try to assimilate their experience into your life...

~what is life without problem~

faith is the mightiest solution... :D

do u care?

"the world does not even bother about you"

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you have a problem...
it is big enough for you think that you have the biggest problem in the world...
but when you observe again your surrounding, the people around you...
surely, yours is nothing compared to them...

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you are stressed out...
thinking about the difficulties you are having...
"oh, why are these only happening to me?" you sighed...
still, there are others who are having the same fate...

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"ARGHH!!! SHIT LA HIDUP NI"
you screamed your lungs out...
claiming the world is not fair...
like the world even care about you...
we are one BIG family on Earth...

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"Dude, you look exhausted... "
"Have a rest, la... "
"Don't force yourself too much"
Surely, there are those who still care about you...
In return, do care about them, too....
The world does not revolve around you alone...

--- Sometimes, silence is a signal of love ---

Let love spread like germs...

erk...

I'm not a fan of football, EPL precisely, but i do know the existance of manchester united and liverpool alike... who are the giants and who is not ... and if i never heard of the club's name, that surely is one lousy club, i daresay...

tonight's result - liverpool 4 - manchester united 1, somehow managed to shocked my head a little bit... i expected a 'rivalry' result- a 1-0 or 2-1 or 0-0 or 1-1, actually, but 4-1 sounds unreasonable to me... manU, dude... not a club to play2 with... even i who didn't watched the match was surprised, left alone to those who watched it... or maybe this was expected by their fans, i do not know....

Ok,,, i don't know why i'm rambling about football... totally not my forte (muhaimin & haikal, 2008)...
>essayS, you really have haywired my mind<

alia> do enjoy the sweet triumph...

kaca mata ku~

duduk di tepian,
perhati orang ramai
perilaku memang pelbagai,
itu lumrah manusia sejagat...

dua orang berpegangan tangan,
mengaku dalam lamunan,
trend agak diterima ramai,
patutlah dunia semakin panas...

dalam masjid duduk di penjuru,
senyap2 zikir penuh khusyuk,
ada pula borak penuh masyuk,
ini dia insan alaf baru...

tasik indah sejuk mata,
syukur nikmat Tuhan yang Esa,
tiba2 nampak semak bergerak,
aduhai rosak mood ilmiah...

hebat sungguh bila berucap,
terpegun, terkesima semua ada,
pabila suruh buat kerja,
1001 alasan jadi jawapan...

bab study memang gila,
buku bertimbun tak nampak awan,
bila suruh mengaji malam sekali,
cari Quran tak jumpa2....

bukan kata diri ni sempurna,
kekadang ada juga yang dibuat,
pemerhatian kaca mata kerdil,
sama2 mandi air jernih...

taggy

Tagged by Syaukat @ Chowkey @ Syou @ Syau…

First name:
Muhammad Faidzal

Name you wish you had:
Faidzal is fine enough, thank you…

What do people normally refer to you:
Pemalu~

Birthday:
Either 30th Ramadhan or 1st Syawal, can’t remember…

Birthplace:
SJMC

Time of birth:
Around Subuh

Single or taken:
Ada sesape dah amek aku?
>xde sape jawab<
I’m single, then~

Zodiac:
Taurus

My appearance:
simple dan bergaya (cough)

How tall are you:
170+ cm

Wish you were taller:
Hurm, ok dah kot…

Eye color :
Dark brown ~ black…

Current hair color:
Still black…

Short or long hair:
Medium, boleh?

Ever dye your hair a bizarre color:
Nope... and never will, kot…

Last time you did something dramatic with you hair:
Nothing dramatic… maintain~

Glasses or contacts:
Glasses

Do you wear make up:
Not yet…

Paint your nails:
Not interested…

Shy or outgoing:
As was said previously, shy~

Sexy or cute:
Momel~

Serious or fun:
More to serious…

A turn on:
Momel-ness…

A turn off:
Seriousness…

This or That

Flowers or chocolates: chocolates (slurp)

Pepsi or coke: pepsi

Rap or rock :rock

Relationship or one night stand: relationship

School or work: school

Love or money: Hurm…
Movie or music: movie

Country or city: I’m not clear on this one…

Sunny or rainy days: Depends…

Friends or family: family

Have you

EverLied: Saya manusia biasa…

Stole something: >fasa memikir<

Smoked: Saya ada asma yang dahulunya kronik…

1. What is the relationship of you and him (si pen’tag’?)?
Friends

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
i) Gila
ii) Baik hati
iii) Kasih sayang
iv) Lawak tersendiri
v) Pure frankness

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
biarlah rahsia…

4.The most memorable things he/she have said to you?
biarlah rahsia juga…

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
Astaghfirullah…

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will..
Biarkan dia main jauh2…

7. If he/she become your lover, he has to improve on his/her....
Astaghfirullah

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is..
i drove him up the wall and ceiling...

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
>sinister laugh<

10. The overall impression of him/her is..
teramatlah pelik, on the same time, teramatlah baik…
untung siapa dapat dia… (chowkey, aku tgh naikkan saham anda)

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
not from Earth…

12. The character of you for yourself is?
Momel~!! >loud cough<13.

On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
laziness is a gift, sometimes…

>I quite don’t understand ques. 11-13, sorry<

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
Lalalalalalalala…

15. For the people who likes you, say something about them?
Serius aku terharu!!!
Mari, aku nk cium pipi skit…

~~~ I refuse to tag ppl~~~
.......lalalala........

ThE eNd~

life again~

seekor zebra bergaduh dengan seekor zebra yang lain...
gaduh dengan penuh hebat,
sampai darah-darah di muka dan anggota-anggota yang lain...

dari jauh, singa tergelak...
dengan penuh sempoi, tunggu dan lihat kedua-dua ekor zebra bergaduh...
lepas ni boleh makan dua-dua...
dua-dua dah penat, cedera dan pasti tiada kudrat nak lari...
bunuh kedua-duanya dengan satu libasan sudah memadai...

zebra-zebra lain?
buat dek dan tiada emosi...
dua-dua ekor zebra itu bukan masalah mereka...
tidak mahu masuk campur, takut kena cap "jaga tepi kain orang (atau zebra)"...

jangan kata singa itu kejam kalau zebra itu tidak mahu bersatu...

live your life~

there are those who succeed due to others' weaknesses...
hoping for others to crumble before he can climb the ladder of success...

there are those who succeed because they are strong...
relying fully on their capabilities to achieved the very best...

have you heard that "the world is only for the fittest"?

the world is for those who want to live, expecting nothing from life except the real meaning of it...

He has shown you the way, it is up to you whether to follow the path or not...
everything is all about making decision...
you choose to succeed if you want to, making all the effort for it...
you choose to fail if you let go of opportunity, hoping for it to knock your door twice...

seriously, is life righteously yours?

,

...

is life all about love? nah~

have you ever wondered?
why the sky is blue?
have you ever wondered?
why i always need you?

have you ever wondered?
why purple is great?
have you ever wondered?
why ours is a fake?

teardrops slowly fade,
nothing more that i can say,
once is surely enough,
for you to be in my life...

>this has nothing to do with my life<

past is for the present, present is for the future, future is for eternity~

kalkulator graf~

ini kisah mesin kira2 b'graf...

pada Ogos tahun 2008,
aku diketemukan dengan tuan ku...

aku ditekan2 dengan penuh gembira,
yalah~ aku mampu lakarkan graf...

dengan didikan teguh Miss Piriya (guru tuan ku),
aku digunakan dengan sebaik mungkin...

Februari 2009,
aku larikan diri daripada tuanku,
aku dah bosan,
hanya benda sama setiap hari...

Hanya tunggu masa,
untuk diketemukan dengan tuan ku,
itu pun kalau aku mahu...

Biarkan dia terkapai2 jawab soalan graf exponensial...

Mari bertenang~

alam guruku~

pabila larut malam,
bulan mengambang,
bintang berkelipan,
ouh indahnya...

pabila suria menjelma,
semua menghilang,
tapi kutahu,
mereka tetap ada...

kerdipan sinaran pagi,
hangatnya terasa suci,
mana pergi bulan dan bintang,
ku tunggu kamu tiba...
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mereka mungkin hilang di mata,
tetapi kita tidak tahu mereka mungkin masih 'berada' di sisi kita...

dan, ketiadaan mereka tidak me'mesti'kan kesedihan itu untuk berlaku...

~timekeeper~

mirai~

"pejal, aku tak boleh bayangkan ko masa dah besar nanti"
"macam ni je la"
>seorang buat mata ziana zain, seorang tersengih<
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pernah terfikir tentang masa depan?
bila diri dah jejak ke alam dewasa...
bila diri dah dapat gaji sendiri...
bila diri dah mula kenal erti kehidupan...

fasa mencari pasangan hidup (ini 'optional', ada yang dah 'reserve')
fasa mula serabut dengan ekonomi
fasa mula simpan duit dengan teratur (ini aku-duit kini mengalir keluar 'deras')(ada yang sudah berlatih, tahniah)

makin terfikir, makin menarik... 'the list continues'... lala...

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"pejal, main futsal nak?"
aku tersengih~

sudah~

kegembiraan di realiti tidak me'mesti'kan keriangan di hati...
kalau aku berpura-pura?
kalau aku hanya berlakon?
kalau itu semua benar?

titisan air mata terakhir...
itu aku harap...
penat dengan keadaan semasa...
yang baru mula menduga...

berhenti sebelum mencuba...
kalah sebelum bertarung...
itu kata-kata awal dahulu...
kini, biar aku mula tatih aku...

Tuhan, aku berdoa...
tetapkanlah aku sebagai manusia...
mungkin dunia himpit ku dari semua arah...
aku tetap mahu jadi aku...

>terima kasih kepada yang sudi tolong<

7th feb

went to OU with bota, qari and chan... :)
today's agenda- cake (=D), ong bak 2 and hang out...

bota-happy ride... :*
qari-buy rechargable batteries, :P...
chan- i'll buy you more tiramisu... =))

hugs~~~

rasa?

dia senyum...
tapi adakah dia gembira?

dia nangis...
tapi adakah dia sedih?

dia ketawa...
tapi adakah dia ceria?

dia termenung...
anda tau ke mana dia merewang?

>terasa bukan bermakna pilu, mungkin hanya mahu kata2 rindu?<

bila hati merapu lagi...

"alum" ku tekan ganas...
hampa~
"alum ferric chloride" ku tekan kurang ganas...
ada sedikit sinar... SeDiKiT...
"alum water treatment" ku tekan lemah...
otak dah tepu... sudah tidak dapat beza sinar dan kelam...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

selamat "homosexuality" , "human population" , dan "solar cell" memahami...
sinaran harapan bahagia...
tunggu untuk di"reference", di"analysis", dan di"copy-and-paste" idea2 bernas...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"optimisation", selamat aku tidak perlu research pasal kau...
kalau tidak, tak tahu ku nak tulis pasal apa...
" optimisation is 'pengoptimuman' ", maybe~

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"al-quran: the forgotten jewel", ko memang memori indah maksimum...
aku terharu... aku terasa seperti insan baru...
mahu sahaja frame kertas2 itu...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"legendaries of malaysia", ko sedikit hampa...
namun, aku tetap puas...
hanya 3 hari dapat markah itu, kalo 3 minggu?
ku juga salah edit, ku rasa.... maaf groupies...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

SAM... kau memang suka tengok aku begini kan?

auckland atau monash, adakah kau sudi?
atau india???

erk~ apa ni...

ouh mengapa,
hanya kalbu rindu,
jangan diingat masa lalu,
penuh syahdu,

ouh mengapa,
kasih datang sekali,
hanya ucapan sakti,
penuh memori,

ouh mengapa,
dunia bagai retak,
jangan beri ku bara,
hatiku lara,

ouh mengapa,
mimpi indah hilang,
realiti menyerang,
jiwaku pasrah,

jangan ditafsir,
ini bukan kisah kasih,
hanya rentak kalut,
mahu lurus padu....

jangan difikir,
ini curahan picis,
seribu satu karut,
taktala minda kabut...

>aku nk teka sape watak kucing ngan panda, boleh?<

BABE~!!!

a word usually used by those two... but, in this very moment, i'm not going write about them... let them be them~~~ :P

i watched this movie entitled "babe" yesterday at star movie... it was about a little pig @ piglet's life in a farm full of various types of animals and they talked... tuptap tuptap, the piglet (babe) became a "sheep pig" <== pig that herd sheep (into @ out of the shed); derived from the word 'sheep dog'...

the piglet strived through all the troubles trying to become 'somebody' in that tiny little world... weird, eh.. i'm writing about a piglet... lalala...

the story managed to hold my attention throughout the 1-hour-plus duration... the piglet was depicted as an innocent and naive creature that just want to be the very best in 'his' life...

>erk~ a piglet taught me something... lalala...<

>shou wanna lend his 'bawah dunia' dvds to me, yeish<

bawah dunia...

just arrived from watching underworld: the rise of the lycan... COOL-a-land!!!... cara cerita agak mudah; boleh agak2 sikit sana sini... but the way it was presented, my eyes just couldn't blink... terkesima dlm keseronokan... had some lighting-overdose-moment to my eyes, however, with all the 'splash-sploosh'es of the swords... nevertheless, it was great... my red money was not wasted.... Not like The Spirit where all that i could understand is to love your city, no more no less... he~!? <== aku pening baca balik perenggan ini... kamu?
(three sentence connectors in one paragraph, lalalala)

kata2 dari satu buku...
kontradiksi idea dalam satu organisasi bukan tanda keretakan, tapi itu tanda pengembangan idea demi kebaikan organisasi itu.... cara dan penerimaan berbeza... kepelbagaian itu menarik, bukan~?

back to underworld... my favourite character is victor... the vicious vampire leader who still can fight a strong young man despite his age... Cool... I also like the flying-without-wing fighting scenes... I was like an electron in an excited state; felt like to fly with the actors... sejak kecil, aku suka bahagian2 yang memaparkan aksi luar biasa (bukan luar tabi'i) manusia... unique yet weird...

kalau ada yang tanya aku "mengapakah encik fareez masih boleh tengok wayang sedangkan kerja kolej (atau kerja sekolah) bertimbun?"...jawapan, "silalah baca buku 24 jam tanpa henti, tanpa tengok tv, tanpa buka laptop; baru kamu boleh tanya kembali soalan itu kepada saya"... lalalala....

happy holiday to all...
may you (or we) have fun with the books...

apa kata itu!!

-taylor's is my 3rd home-
seriously speaking, with all the owh-goodie2-and-very-accomodating assignments, i HAVE to search for my sources at taylor's library everyday (almost)... this also applies to many SAM-nites who are getting used to this new catastrophic environment (i'm taking my sweet ol' time)... >lalala<

papepun, tolak kerja2 menarik itu ketepi, mari kita menghayati erti cuti yang boleh membenarkan aku bergolek2 seketika... hurm~ tidak mampu...

~kata2 khayalan~

semua orang akan menghadapi masalah dalam kehidupan; satu kepastian mutlak... tapi, persoalannya, bagaimanakah kita menukarkan masalah itu kepada satu pengalaman manis yang akan menjadi kebanggaan buat sementara waktu atau jangka masa panjang... aku satu produk gagal dalam 'handle' masalah <=== tidak perlu huraian terperinci mahupun ringkas...

masalah boleh menyebabkan kekabutan maksimum, kekalutan minda dan kehuru-haraan jiwa...

anyway, obstacles make us grow and mature... they may be bitter but they do taste sweet later on, somehow without we realise...

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if you try to reach for the sky, try building an airplane <== if you really want to feel it...

>lalalalala<

of movie and AJL

huhu... went for a movie this evening... just to relax the unsettled mind...

hilal chattered with zuhair: oit, nak tgk maut ptg ni.... *maut is the title of a movie... not like we were going to watch someone die for real~~~

aku mencelah~~~

fareez: mau juga, mau juga...
hilal: on~~~

--- after the movie ---

WO!!! really shocked for a while after the 2nd scene... scary~~~
>insaf ke?<

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then, for the much-awaited show for this week... AJL... huhu...
my favourite singer, Faizal Tahir... not because we share the same name, :P , but just because his voice is very Oh-la-la...

--- the result ---

best show - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (i screamed like hell for a sec) suka2~~~
best vocal - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (serius aku terharu)
best ballad - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (WAAAAAAAAA!!!!)
-after these three winnings, i'm so sure he's going to win the overall-
best ethnic - farah~~~
best pop rock - lagu untukmu, Meet Uncle Hussein (lan's voice was so powerful, undeniable)
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Overall,,,, drumroll~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Lagu untukmu, Meet Uncle Hussein!!!
I was so devastated... Really wished for faizal to win~~`
but anyway, MUH was really great tonight... teramat layak menang....
Faizal, your winnings were totally a blast... Ko rockz~
>love his show... very unique<

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Class starts again tomorrow, yei~~~

khas utk ko~~~

kata semangat untuk anda~~~
semoga sihat selalu...
ramai individu kasih akan mu...
risau bukan perkataan bagi mu...
tabah dan sabar... k~?
untung bagi mu...
>salah kah kalo aku tidak lihat perhati keadaan mu?<
>1001 maaf<

owh kau~~~ yang aku tahu 1 feb ialah hari wilayah...
apa signifikan?
>tidak apa, aku tunggu<
>demi mu<

apabila otak dah karut,
kerja dah bak gunung,
kau masih berani blogging?
tahniah...
memang produk berjaya...

kosong bukan tiada~

ku rasa seperti mahu beredar jauh,
kau pegang ku erat, ajar ku erti tabah...

ku rasa seperti mahu lepas perasaan terkumpul,
kau tiup hembusan damai, ajar ku erti sabar...

ku rasa seperti mahu serah jiwa kepada nafsu,
kau ajar ayat suci, ajar ku ketahanan diri...

ku rasa seperti mahu hidup seorang tanpa sekitaran,
kau bawa ku ke realiti, ajar ku maksud kawan sejati...

>aku kosong, kau hendak isi diri ini~!?<

momel + tantum = momentum!?

thought of that equation during Phy's class... Out of boredom and blurriness... :P
trying my hard to cope up with the 'new life'...

Oooo... Dr. Mahathir gave a talk at Taylors this morning on 'Global Peace'... Eventhough some of my classmates attended that one-in-a-lifetime talk, i chose to go to class (sayang wo escape Phy + Maths)...

Quotations from those who attended...

"Best!!" - As expected from Dr. M...

"Suprisingly seronok" - Not expecting a good talk... turned out otherwise...

"Dr. M cute gak la" - Erk~!? no comment

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Officially, J1 has four lenghty essays to be done...

# Biology - <1000 words... on the effect of increasing human population...

# English - ~2000 words... still hasn't decided on the topic... >anything under the sun< huahua

# Chemistry - <1000 words... on Alum as flocculating agent... (never heard of that before)

# Physics - 1000-1100 words... still hasn't decided on the three topics...

>This is why I love SAM so much<

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hanya masa akan beritahu~

Fikir~

minda manusia terbatas, itu pasti...
bukan semua dalam linkungan pemikiran...
bukan semua dalam pemahaman minda...

Oh Tuhan, lindungi aku dari terbabas...
Oh Tuhan, lindungi aku dari terpesong...

Aku lemah,
Aku hina,
Tapi aku masih kurang sedar...

>Semoga sentiasa dalam lembayung-Mu<

>war<

mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita tahu erti tahu perpaduan...
mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita betul2 faham erti agama...
mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita tahu erti kemajuan menyeluruh~~~
zionis, kau kejam...
palestin, tabah~! hanya kata2 itu aku mampu~

>mari berdoa sesungguhnya, the least we can do<

kata2 mainan---

cuba lihat kiri kanan...
mana kawan, mana sahabat...
mana realiti, mana fantasi...

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apa tujuan kita diwujudkan di muka bumi?
apa tujuan kita dilahirkan oleh ibu bapa?
apa tujuan kita masuk sekolah?
apa tujuan kita bekerja?
apa tujuan kita mempunyai agama?

>ini mungkin soalan retorik, mungkin tidak<

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>nape dia pakai, yg lain x pakai...?<
soalan lazim~ aku x mampu jawab...
hanya ketetapan hati yang mampu selesaikan...

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apabila aku masuk taylor's
SEM 1 aku di awangan...
SEM 2 aku di daratan...
harap SEM 3, aku bukan di lautan dalam...

baru sedar, tidak semua itu berpihak pada diri kita...
baru sedar, realiti itu wujud...
baru sedar, kasih bukan paksaan tapi penerimaan...

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pernah tidak kita jalan2, kemudian orang memerhati tajam kita, seolah2 kita melakukan kesalahan besar... sedangkan kita hanya berlagak biasa tanpa sebarang kepelikan gerak geri... hurm....
aku mmg pelik inside out... anda tau? sila abaikan aku~~~

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>jangan mimpikan kejayaan kalau kau masih mengabaikan erti diri dalam kehidupan<

maaf sebarang kekhilafan...