ipod nano.

my new baby.

*wink2*

setelah 5 kali klik "buy" pastu "cancel", akhirnya bernekad lah juga hati untuk membeli.

semoga hidup lama di sisi ku.

30&31/1/2/2010

CHAN~!!!

his birthday yesterday.

dah 20 tahun.

dah besar dah dia, sobs2.

sebab dia sedang menelaah di luar negara ketika semalam,

i went to KL with Qari to celebrate.

Chan, kitorg tengok Tron 3D kat GSC Maxx. Makan Subway. & beli barang baju sejuk untuk Qari kat Uniqloo (google tempat nih, Qari yang introduce kat aku)

best kan cara kitorang celebrate. bwahaha.

nway, if we meet, i belanja u food. jangan cekik darah sudah. :)

& esok 1 Jan.

see you next year.

baby girl

ME - uncle for the 8th newcomer to the family.

another budak kecik who will grow up not recognising me because i'll be away during her crucial phase of growing. just like the previous two. i'm still trying to get along with those two.

*setapak aku dekat ngan diorg, sekilometer dirog lari dari aku dengan tangisan, lolz*

may barakah fills in, prosperity grows & laughter enlightens this family.

Oh Allah, thank You.

manusia itu ada hati

Sudah lah kata dusta,

Sudah lah kata nista,

Itu hanya justifikasi kau kepada dunia

Betapa tidak kisahnya kau kepada dia.

Segala kisah manis tidak pernah pudar

Namun kisah pahit itu tetap buat kau terluka,

Tapi dalam sedar yang kelam

Kau masih mahu perhatian dari dia.

Bukan dia yang kau benci

Hanya sikap yang menjadi duri kepada diri.

Hanya satu yang dipinta,

Jangan dibiar benci terus membara,

Kelak terhalang sinar cinta yang lebih mulia.

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Dalam kecewa berbolak balik kau,

Pernah terfikir segala bakti seribu yang dia tabur?

Pernah hati tersindir dengan budi kau yang sedikit kalau nak dibanding?

Dan kau kecewa kerana duri sedikit yang tercalar di hati kau,

Sedang duri kau pernah buat dia berdarah?

Pernah tercelik di minda

Dia pernah ‘renang lautan api’ demi kau?

Pernah terdetik di jiwa

Dia juga punya perasaan, juga sensitif seperti kau?

Dan kau hanya mampu kata

Dia seorang sahaja tidak mampu memahami,

Sedangkan dia yang sudah merasai baik buruk kau.

Cerminlah diri,

Dan jangan biar cermin itu terus biar kau hanyut dalam keindahan kata-kata sendiri.

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Siapa kata dia tidak pernah rasa kecewa,

Jauhi diri dia

Itu bukan manusia.

of result and life.

12 days ago, the result was released.

:)

i thank God for it.

having managed to pass it was great

& getting 72 for total mark was quite above the expectation.

:)

again, Alhamdulillah.

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watched some movies:

1)due date.

simply annoying.

2)how to train your dragon.

quite fun to watch.

3)despicable me.

cute.

4)star trek.

highly watchable. more less like star wars.

5)rapunzel.

enjoyable. like parts of the scripts.

want to watch:

1)narnia

2)tron 3D

3)step up

4)easy a

5)legend of the guardians

6)social network

7)hantu kak limah balik rumah (they say it's fun)

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later will try to buy some medic books at kamal.

based on this year needs, i would like to buy:

-gray's anatomy

-talley o'connor clinical exam

-robbins & cotran patho basic

-boron physio(still thinking)

-ecg in 10 days (kak nik's suggestion)

-anatomy flashcards (nak baca dalam train konon nya)

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& OMG~!

Reefqi dapat Waseda.

first choice kot.

proud of you, dude.

3 months before fly nih.

hayatilah Malaysia ni sebaik2nya. :P

& we shall enjoy ourselves.

& we shall add Bota to the joy after he gets back here.

& dude,

fly high~

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reading statuses of break ups make me sad.

they are just full of hatred and agony.

IMHO with no couple experience whatsoever,

just settle it between yourselves without telling or shouting to the world that you guys just broke up.

privacy is everything.

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enjoying this peaceful holiday.

peace, literally.

kembali pulang

malaysia, home sweet home.

arrived safely on thursday night.

gembira hati hanya Tuhan yang tahu.

mai nak habaq pi apa jadi minggu lepas.

b4 fly (di aust)

OMG, rumah untuk next year tak jumpa lagi, camne nk buat?

searching high & low for a suitable one to fit us 8. *yes, 8*

first time nak cari, tanpa sebarang pengalaman, memang haru biru la kan.

1) kena gi rumah & view. kat umah nanti after viewing, baru dpt application form. (kalo tak view, tak boleh nak apply)

2) pastu tunggu landlord boleh terima kita tak.

3) then bayar deposit. kena tunggu confirmation landlord balik.

nampak simple je kan. tapi kitorg first step dah sangkut. balik rabu, isnin baru nak start cari, memang nak dapat waktu utk view pun payah la kan~

kalo ada rumah yang cun dan memenuhi syarat pun, selalu ramai yang berebut nak. (ada satu rumah yang kitorang berkenan, viewing for the first session pun dah penuh =.=")

yang step 2 & 3, tak merasa lagi.

last2, tak nak ambil risk, apply je student uni accom.

the journey back home

shahrul, yuhin & i took jetstar from sydney to singapore, then flew from singapore to LCCT with tiger airways.

kat singapore, sampai2 je, blur nak buat apa.

lepas dah sorted things out, we ate first. ada bawa bekal nasi goreng yang shahrul goreng.

then keep our baggage at 'simpanan bagasi' for only S$7.50 for the first 24 hours. (one big bag & one small bag)

pusing2 tiga2 terminal. serabut pula nak buat apa tunggu sampai pagi (arrived at changi airport around 10pm)

then kat terminal 3, bought a caramel latte at coffee bean, layan scott pilgrim until halfway then snoozed off till subuh. (solat maghrib + isya' kat tangga terminal 1 & subuh kat hallway tersembunyi di terminal 3)

pagi tu, keluar bersiar2 di singapore

naik MRT gi Eunos. nak tengok ada apa kat malay village

turun2, pekena roti canai (roti pratha in singapore) & teh tarik. pergh. terkenang memori lalu. * exaggerate*

habis2, bersiar2 di tepi jalan menuju ke satu destinasi yang terjumpa. ntah kat mana malay village tu. *dah tanya dua orang, x jumpa lagi, memang kena tanya lagi la ni*

last2, singgah pasar geylang serai. round2 je. macam market kat seksyen 6.

pastu decide nak bergambar dengan merlion (singa pancut air ikut mulut)

naik MRT lagi ke Raffles Place.

turun2, blur lagi. teruskan berjalan.

tanya seorang mamat local, jumpa la juga merlion.

besides merlion ada la bergambar dengan esplanade, ship on the three building (tak tau nama building), parliament building.

after that, searched for a place to have lunch. pusing2, ada la kedai diberi nama "Hawa restaurant" sebelah kedai Es Teller yang tak buka lagi.

pekena nasi ayam & honey dew juice. *lepas rindu lagi*

then, headed back to airport.

2/12/2010

naik Tiger Airways. cheap flight je. mula2 patut naik kul 7 pagi. dan2 a month before, dia tunda sampai kul 5ptg. lahabau. tapi takpe. dapat jalan2 skit kat singapore.

sampai LCCT around 7pm. keluar2, abah tak cam. as what my sister said, "rambut cam rockstar" smart, ok~ *masuk lif, tekan butang atas*

and yeah, sampai rumah after pekena satay Hj Samuri.

& now, kena explore Shah Alam lagi menyeluruh. your Geography is terrible when anyone from other state knows your place better than you.

conclusion:

penat + puas

next year nak ambil MAS. senang hidup

makan puas2.

yezza

the smell of freedom never been this sweeter.

3 weeks of anxiousness and mind-wrecking moments have finally been put into rest.

i've put in the best effort i can & now i shall pray to Allah everything is alright.

summary of exams.

1)SAQ & MEQ

putting these two in the first week was sure a motivator-buster.

picking up every little bit of confidence left after answering them on the first Monday & Wednesday.

2)MCQs

two papers; one was tad hard, another was quite manageable.

3)anatomy spot test

frankly, easier than expected. but, i would never know what the examiners really want.

but,

the third station was messy.

the last station; not expecting to be asked every little detail of the vertebrae.

overall; had migraine for every paper. need to be relieved with a bit dose of chocolate and undisturbed sleep.

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another way to relieve stress; watching movie.

harry potter and the deathly hallows part 1.

i have mixed feelings for it.

in one way, i am satisfied with the story which follow the novel's storyline quite well.

but, there is a loophole that i can't seem to know what.

however, it was enjoyable.

my rating will be around 7-8/10.

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kerisauan yang tiada berbalas.

A risaukan kehidupan B sepanjang tahun.

B tidak ambil kisah akan kesusahan A walaupun untuk sesaat.

dunia, aku nampak tidak adil.

namun,

segalanya ketentuan Ilahi,

segalanya ada kisah tersendiri,

segalanya untuk aku cari dan fahami.

Tuhan,

bersyukur atas kesusahan itu susah,

namun tiada bebanan yang aku tidak mampu pikul,

janji-Mu bukan janji manusia yang penuh bermadah pujangga.

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shopping2. :)

exam

exam is starting on the 8th of november.

mukadimah dgn paper SAQ.

followed by MEQ.

then two MCQ papers.

anatomy spot test x tau lg.

*breathe in breathe out*

alia> not from a korean song/lyrics. :P unless kalo ko consider aku korean. :PP

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how many post already bout exams? haha

risau teramat.

rasa?

kau sedang gembira,

izinkan lah diri mu tertawa,

lihatlah dunia penuh warna,

hayati lah keindahan sementara.

kau sedang bersedih,

izinkan lah diri mu menangis,

meratapi jangan lah sekali,

beri lah peluang minda mu merintih sunyi.

dunia penuh tawa dan duka,

itu lumrah yang semua rasa.

tidak Tuhan beri ujian,

melainkan kau boleh galas.

kau dan aku lain caranya,

itu buat kita berbeza,

tapi tujuan kita sama,

untuk capai gembira selama2nya.

tapi, bukankah ukiran marmar itu perlukan dikikir,

sebelum mencapai hasil yang menarik?

kalau manusia, diri dikikir mesti rasa sakit, bukan?

kejayaan selalu datang selepas kesusahan,

untuk kau hargai dengan penuh makna.

yada2

tetibe rasa nk post gambar ini di sini juga. =P

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being slacking off lately. well, for this whole semester, frankly.

loss or lack of motivation. or just too much unnecessary thing to think about.

priorities. no too good on that one, i guess.

baru first year, wei. dah kalut gile. ngess.

belum masuk clinical years lagi.

yada2 about this and that.

can't wait for december.

Malaysia; home; happy. =)

breathe in. breathe out. yosh.

kuasa.

burung teriak di tengah padang luas,

"ini kawasan aku"

"ini kawasan aku"

"ini kawasan aku"

teriakan bingit kedengaran dari pagi ke petang,

dari petang ke tengah malam,

garang mempertahankan kawasan,

pantang ada yang menjejak,

dikejar sampai hujung kawasan.

sampai lah satu ketika burung itu mati,

sunyi sepi seketika.

diganti pula dengan burung lain.

kitaran tiada henti.

mungkin itu kitaran/ lumrah alam?

manusia sekali kah?

sinopsis raya di australia.versi tahun pertama

Jumaat.10/09/2010

Bangun lambat. *a good way to start your Eid*

Berlari sampai jantung kencang (teringat akan semua Cardio lectures)

Sampai ke train station Macarthur tepat pada waktunya.

Dijemput oleh Imam Ridhwan di Minto.

Solat raya kat Minto.

Ke rumah aunt Sumayyah utk beraya (breakfast).

Sisters kembali ke UWS utk ujian formatif. Brothers malas nak ambil. =P

Solat jumaat di tempat solat raya tadi.

Lepas solat, gi City. (nak beraya kat rumah Puan Nora)

Turun kat Museum.

Tunggu bas. HuJan.

Nampak bas datang. Lega.

Tapi bas itu tidak berhenti. *Istighfar byk2 dlm hati*

Tunggu lagi. *Masih b'istighfar*

Bedal naik bas yang mungkin ke arah yang sama.

Alan tanya bus driver akan lokasi.

"Alan: Singgah kat Maroubra, x?*

Bus driver: Singgah2

Alan: Boleh bayar guna syiling, x? *Sydney guna sistem pre-pay, mcm touch 'n go*

Bus driver: Pre-pay je, bro~ *Got buses which still accept coins*

Alan: Owh, xpelah. Kami xde kad pre-pay tu.

Bus driver: Owh, duduk je lah. I know today is your big day."

Walawei, serius aku sayang bus driver nih.

16 org berpakaian raya naik bas. *8 berbaju Melayu*

Sampai destinasi. Terima kasih bus driver. Siap gasi signal bila nak turun lag tuh.

Makan kat rumah Puan Nora.

Melantak.

Berlegar2 di rumah Puan Nora lebih kurang 2 jam.

Pukul 6.30pm, bertolak kembali ke UWS.

Pancit. Tidur. Ready for the next day. *ready la sgt*

Sabtu.11/09.2010

Ke Circular Quay. Tangkap gambar kat depan Opera House. *pakaian raya*

Masa tangkap gambar, siap ada orang putih/pelancong request nak tangkap gambar sekali.

Pakaian kami itu unik, ok~

Dua jam untuk sesi bergambar *itu pun masih tidak mencukupi*

Naik bas, gi Malaysia Hall, ada open house. *or open hall?*

Melantak.

Stay sampai petang skit.

Balik UWS. prepare untuk mini open house (versi Apt 44).

Masak2~~~

Tugas pejal? buat air bandung + assist yg lain masak. =)

Makan2. tak melantak, dah agak penuh tadi.

Gelak2 tengok gambar slideshow raya di depan Opera House.

Tidur selepas Subuh. assist Alan masak rendang utk esok nya.

Ahad.12.09.2010

Dua mini open houses.

Satu versi Apt 39.

Dan lagi satu versi Apt 52.

Malam di Apt 52.

"Karaoke" lagu raya.

sorang2 macam mabuk *jangan risau, tiada arak*

Gelak2 lagi.

Malam tu sedih.

Sebab apa?

Isnin dah start kelas balik.

The thought of PBL always give me goosebumps. =P

FIN~

*Sinopsis la sangat.*

salam aidilfitri

(Caption: budak2 UWS medic 1st year)

salam perantauan '10

salam aidilfitri

salam eid mubarak

maaf zahir batin (i mean it, especially the second one =P)

may we get to live till next ramadhan arrives.

Puasa

Ramadhan is near to its end.

And I'm thinking, whether the same is happening to my good deeds.

Hoping for a better Ramadhan,

but without much effort, it'll be fruitless.

Niat may bring in pahala,

but, it must be accompanied by ibadah to make it sweeter.

good reading: http://saifulislam.com/?p=6577 (nota ringkas: mengapa ramadhan tidak berkesan)

by ustaz hasrizal on his website, saifulislam.com .

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owh, a test is coming up.

it will be held on Raya.

selamat hanya ujian formatif (not counted to the final mark). yeah!

karut

I am reading anatomy in the middle of the night, trying to understand blood supply to the heart.

This is my life until WEEK 15 arrives.

This little headache after long-hour (yeah right) study needs to be relieved with a little melody from youtube.

after listening + watching the video clip of 'love the way you lie', I let my 'thinking-about-life' part of the brain works a bit.

*

Kalau kasih sayang begitu menebal,

sampai benci hanya lah sementara,

begitu membara marah,

hanya satu kucupan sayang,

leyap kisah hitam,

terbit memori indah,

ini cinta gila.

kesakitan penawar marah,

kesakitan penawar kebencian,

kesakitan menjadi ubat kepada cinta yang pudar.

bukan kah cinta itu pewarna warni hidup?

bukan menghitam kaburkan minda yang sudah tersedia jumud?

biarlah aku cuba memahami erti cinta ini.

tanpa erti.

tanpa hati.

tiada makna diri.

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karutan itu seronok, bukan?

memberi kusutan pada yang membaca =P

yes, coronary artery. I haven't forgotten you. I shall return to you in a bit.

aku dan dia.

dalam gelap ku senangi,

bermain hayati indah sendiri,

for these wall around me that I've built,

they are so strong and very thick,

dinding2 itu semakin tebal ku bina,

pisah kan daku dari semua,

but one man try to break in,

carving his way through patiently,

aku hanya mampu duduk seorang menanti,

dengan kerisauan tersebar dalam diri,

what is this man doing?

doesn't he know alone is what I need?

dapat ku dengar sayup2 gelak tawa,

perkara yang sudah lama ku lupa,

for long that man is still trying,

i hope he will never succeed,

sedikit demi sedikit dinding ku semakin rapuh,

biasan cahaya semakin menerpa mata ku,

he, feeling triumphant, has torn down those walls,

extends his hands to me, who still feel raw,

"mari menuju cahaya di luar sana,

aku di sini untuk teman kau hayatinya"

what is happening right now is just too surreal,

a man too sincere to bring me out of here,

perlahan2 aku berdiri dan mulakan langkah pertama,

sambil tangan di mata, tahan cahaya dari menerkam mata,

it is not that bad as i initially thought,

the warmth, the happiness, everything that can never be bought,

aku pandang dia penuh pertanyaan,

"mengapa susah payah hulurkan tangan?"

he keep silent, with a smile carved on his face,

"no absolute reason, just to bring you to this place"

dalam senyap aku masih perhati,

cuba rungkai kan serabut dalam hati,

he added "i was once like you,

full of misery and full of issues,

tapi ada insan yang sudi membantu,

keluarkan aku dari risau dan buntu,

from that moment i made a vow,

to help others, regardless of who they are"

mulai saat itu, aku mula sedar,

segala gelap dan sedih boleh sahaja pudar,

and there are still people who still have heart,

saving the world from tearing apart,

sedikit demi sedikit aku ukirkan senyuman,

minda ku bebas, terangkat sudah bebanan,

simply, a simple gesture of love makes the world go round~

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buat sahabat, terima kasih kerana bawa aku keluar dari kepompong.

aku, kini, mungkin bukan rama2 seperti yg lain,

tapi aku sudah mula boleh menghayati hidup,

kurang sesalan, kurang gusar, kurang kesedihan.

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tumblr fun utk quotation. :P

pandangan.

dalam dia nyaman memerhati malam.

orang di sana senang bermandi cahaya matahari.

mungkin berbeza suasana,

tetapi perasaan mereka tetap sama;

syukur akan alam yang nyata.

hargailah apa yang sudah terbentang di depan mata.

perlukah gunung terbelah dua?

atau batu terbang di angkasa?

untuk kau menyelami keindahan oleh Maha Kuasa?

contemplate, even about the slightest creation.

hurm.

hati tersentuh memikirkan,

apabila haiwan lebih 'memahami' erti 'peri kemanusiaan'.

terlalukan songsangkah pemikiran kita,

untuk menilai baik dan buruk?

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Ramadhan is just around the corner.

Am I ready?

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I have 15 weeks to doodle around for this semester.

4 weeks down, 11 more to go.

now, I can't wait to board that plane to Malaysia.

before that,

say Hi to:

-OSCE,

-4 final papers,

-1 anatomy spot test &

-3 EBM assignments.

those are something you really can wait.

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apabila hati kosong,

kau ada dua pilihan:

a)isikan dengan kesucian

b)celakakan dengan kekotoran.

option b sounds more tempting?

it's totally ur choice.

SoL, Karate Kid.

Sound of Light last week at Acer Arena.

There were Raihan, Maher Zain and some more.

The two were awesome, greatness be to Allah.

Pandai letak Raihan last2. Great ending. *Sape x suka percussion berentak2 smart kan?*

Maher Zain, just try listening to his songs. InsyaAllah you will love them. :)

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baru tgk Karate Kid;

"life will knock us down, but we can choose, whether or not, to get back up." kata encik jackie chan kepada anak will smith

apa yg best, part lawan2.

seronok tgk budak2 kecik terbang, tendang2, muka bajet ganas. <== i'm not for violence, i'm for techniques and strategies.

and typical conclusion; be strong and don't be afraid of what is up against you.

and it's not all about winning (well, most of time, it is), it's mainly about how you play the game.

*enough babbling*

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orang ckp tumblr macam fun?

holiday~

bak kata sarah,

"~4 months b4 melby: decided on going to melbourne,

~1 month b4 melby: start planning etc.,

~3 weeks b4 melby: proper itinerary planning,

a day b4 melby: tram no(s)"

aku tambah

"melby: bota jadi tour guide =P,

post-melby: despair tunggu result + kedatangan Sem 2."

apa aktiviti kami di melbourne?

sila rujuk facebook. :)

result?

praise be to Him. :)

now?

ready myself for Sem 2.

lecture notes dah upload kat blackboard.

group PBL dah tahu.

sekarang tinggal bedal je.

Sem 2, I shall do my best.

erti kisah.

satu-satu rebah ke bumi

bagai hilang segala percaya

kau tilik diri sendiri

apa masih ada sinar neraca

kau masih nantikan panggilan sepi

tunggu dengan penuh gagah

segala harapan kau telah mati

semua hanya tinggal sejarah

kau biarkan dunia hancurkan engkau

dalam tusukan seribu macam tajam

kau relakan dirimu dimamah ranjau

pandangan mu hanya lah pada kelam

kau terus menjerit;

"mana pergi cahaya cinta

mana hilang belaian kasih

ada lagi kah erti pada makna

ada lagi kah erti pada sakti"

biarkan lah semua itu berlalu

walau tiada peluang untuk lupa

kejar lah segala yang kau mahu

kerana masa lampau hanya cereka

kau cari segala seribu kekuatan

untuk berdepan carca marba manusia.

bahagia lah kamu kalau jumpa ketenangan

itu makna kau sudah bersedia.

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semua kisahku hanya satu;

mencari diri

mencari realiti,

dan segala bagai perjalanan

di antara mula dan akhir nya.

kadangkala menyeksakan

kadangkala menyeronokkan

tapi itu semua kisah

yang telah kita corakkan

jangan ada sesalan

semua itu suratan

fikirkan yang masih putih

untuk kita warna-warni kan.

cuti bukan rehat, bukan?

i'm officially on holiday..

... a week ago.

a week before that, had three papers; 1 SAQ & 2 MCQs.
killers, but still 'answer'able... i think.

mula cuti, rehat 1~2 hari. the papers drained almost all my energy.
dah ada energy, gi sana dan sini utk explore tempat yg sepatutnya dah lama explore + mini gathering.

Gi Campbelltown, lawat factory outlet.
Sbb x puas, member ajak gi DFO kat Homebush.
Terus mata bersinar2.
No further detail.

Gi City (read: Sydney).
Mula2 ingat nk jalan2 simple je.
Then extended sampai ke mlm.
Siap dpt layanan istimewa dari seniors rumah baitul ikram.
nasi lemak plus cekodok.
stomach filled to the brim.
rehat 2 jam.
baru blah balik Macarthur.

Gathering seniors di UWS (read: ramah mesra)
makan sedap. *tgk head chef la kan; which is not me*
plus desert + cocktail; penambah seri.
"mafia wars" 3 rounds. <== serak suara.
watched brazil vs portugal.
cards playing here and there.
conclusion; fun + bonded.

Gi Campbelltown lagi.
Tengok wayang dengan rakan2 seperjuangan + seniors.
Toy Story 3.
worth my every penny.
tunggu this sequel punya lama.
penantian yang berbaloi.
beautiful ending.
applaudable plot.
a wonderful watch.
*ini perspektif individu yang suka tgk kartun*

now, waiting for melbourne trip.
doodle~

:P

14/06/2010
20 tahun yang lalu, insan ini telah dilahirkan.
Kini, sudah mula bertatih untuk menjadi doktor.

If u ask me to nominate the toughest fighter, i would go for this gal.
Come hurricane or flood, she will brave the odds, and come out stronger.

Corak demi corak, anda warnai dunia di sekeliling anda.
Dan anda masih terus mencorak.
Mungkin tidak ramai yang mahu ambil kisah corakan itu.
Tapi, anda masih terus mencorak; untuk kini dan masa hadapan.
U always move forward, day by day.

Setiap titisan air mata, anda jadikan kekuatan.
Setiap tekanan, anda jadikan cabaran.

That’s pure strength.

Aisyah Ibrahim, happy birthday. Live long, live well, live life to ur fullest
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Dreaming of the past,
Thinking of the future,
Initiating the present.

Nothing is fine,
Unless, you understand your purpose of living.
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Owh. Saya masih single. Saya bukan gay. Saya masih belum mahu ber’couple’.
Anything seems contradicting? Haha.
I’m not sure why, lately, i keep on getting questions like, “betul ke ko single lagi?” or “Ko ada apa2 ke ngan dia”. Or maybe it’s me just who is perasan. :P
Anyway, the above statement shall explain my current status quite well.
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Doodlish world is full of colour.
And, lines~

tiada bukan hilang

ku menari rentak satu persatu
untuk hayati saat bersama

ku nyanyikan melodi rindu
untuk hadirkan diri yg tiada

ku sampaikan kata2 syahdu
untuk hilangkan resah yg lara

ku dendangkan irama lalu
untuk kenangan masa muka

tiada yang pasti tentang hari itu
tapi kini, kita masih serupa.

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to have something or nothing, sometimes, are the same,
we will crave for more and more.

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i'm terrible with words, actions or anything,
but can my presence makes you feel better?
fullstop.
you choose~

of downs with solutions.

sitting on a chair, crying out loud
wondering what'll happen right now

realise, there is no truth
in everything that you do

silence, throughout the day
hoping it will turn out okay

the ringing zaps me back to reality
suddenly, i miss my family

all i can say i just say
and that really makes my day

step back a while from being bold
to stop doing something stupid down cold

now i know it's not you who lied
it's just me who didn't understand why
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persepsi itu bukan mainan satu pihak.

ia melibatkan pemerhatian si pemerhati
dan perilaku si pelaku.

tapi bahaya selalu terletak pada si pemerhati
kerana dia yang suka menafsir.
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well, i tell nonsense a lot.
because i believe that nonsense is needed to create senses.
=PP

well, nothing much happen really.
just the same ol' routine every week.

PBL on monday, after a series of lectures in the morning.
nothing on tuesday
'practical' and PPD tutorial on wednesday, follow by two-hour lecture in the evening
learn art on thursday. not literally. =P got clinical practice on this day.
lectures and PBL again on friday.

*study hours here and there during breaks and between lectures or tutes*

it's not that packed compared to other UNIs (read: medic course).
but, this is little compared to what has been prepared for us later on.

expect the unexpected.
and learn the way of life along the way.

:D

i thank you all who wished and make my life extra meaningful.

abah, mama, along, b.long, k.ita, b.ngah, k.lin,bro izzad, k.zura and kiddies; thank you guys for the card. this year's is extra special since it my first celebration in australia. love u guys. :D

bota, chan and qari; as always, u guys enlighten my day (night, to be precise). miss u guys yg amat.

rakan2 UWS + newie. u guys mmg la surprisingly surprising.

i'll remember the day i involved in the preparation of my own party. haha.

alan, lokman, nasriq, syafiq, redo, azra, ernie, sarah, helma, ahirah and kina; i thank you for it.

:D warm and cosy celebration, i like.

and others yg wish thro fb and phone, i also thank you guys a lot.

saya tidak publish bday ku di fb atas sebab2 peribadi, namun anda semua tetap ingat.

i really apreciate it. :D

i'm bad with words or in expressing my gratitude. but do know, segala apa yang anda semua buat, saya amat hargainya, sedikit mana pun.

life.

sometimes,

to feel is just plain excruciating.

i hate pain,

but i don't hate feeling.

but i just have to have both.

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if your words cause him to be worse,

you have defied the main purpose of 'rectifying' him.

your intention is excellent,

but your action is the worst.

pinar.

i'm not a guy for you to love

i'm not a friend for you trust

i'm not a somebody for you to care about.

you and i are never the same.

but can't we tolerate these difference?

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aku palingkan muka ku

bukan untuk kau paksa ku memandang mu.

kalau itu yang kau mahu.

serius, aku tetap akan jauhkan diriku padamu.

dan tetap tidak pandang mu.

aku bukan sepertimu,

untuk tabur kebaikan di sana sini,

untuk bentuk insaniah yang abadi.

kerana aku masih mencari diriku,

dan diriku, ku pasti, bukan kamu atau bayangan mu.

jarak ku dengan mu akan ku jaga,

supaya tiada paksaan dalam jiwa ini,

yang kau robek satu persatu.

masih kah kamu mahu mendekati ku?

silakan,

aku sudah sedia langkah seribu.

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aku hanya nampak kesusahan dalam hidup,

bebanan yang bagai tiada akhir.

aku hanya mampu mengeluh,

kesalan yang masih berbunyi.

kelam minda dan penglihatan,

campuran dunia dan akhirat.

Kau berhentikan kaki ku,

lihat kan ku cahaya cerah,

di sudut yang sepi.

Kau biarkan ku jalan menuju cahaya kecil.

dalam kelam ku hayati cahaya,

aku terus gembira dengan cahaya.

dalam asyik sendiri,

aku lihat sekeliling.

kelam makin pudar.

kau ganti dengan sinar

sedikit-dikit,

tanpa ku sedar.

kini aku lihat,

hanya sedikit kelam dalam sinar yang luas.

aku berdoa,

tidak aku mahu ke arah kelam yang sudah pudar.

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a month

tup tap tup tap, it's already a month me being here.
have passed 2 PBLs 'gloriously', thanx to my bluriness.
the series of lectures sure give me an overview on how my five years here going to be like.
"FUN" in a good intellectual way.
*please bear with me for a while. a little bit hyper-ed right now*

anyway. without challenge, life will be dull, won't it?
several breakdowns. several triumphs; mixtures towards a matured leand wise man, hopefully.

nothing will be like a breeze forever.

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*if you want the grass, aim for the tree,
if you want the sky, aim for the moon,
if you want me, aim for nothing*

muhaimin

Muhaimin Amran.

Ketua kelas untuk satu setengah tahun.
Tiada sebarang cubaan untuk menggulingkan beliau atas dasar tiada siapa berani mencabar beliau. :P
Dan beliau sememangnya layak galas tanggungjawab itu.

Hari ini beliau dah 20 tahun.
Ucapan HAPPY BIRTHDAY diucapkan kepada beliau.

*May your day filled with happiness and joy and wisdom, like always . :D*

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Post saya dah tukar jadi tempat wish birthday semata2. :P

RIFQI!!!

i haven't updated this thing for a long time. salahkan sistem wifi uws yang aku masih cuba utk memahami mengapa sistem "OS compatibility"nya harus begitu sukar.

mesti ramai dah rindu aku dah :P *yeah right*


nway. on this special day, i would like to wish


ABDUL RIFQI AL-ABQARY BIN ABDUL WALID


the most happiest and merriest HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!


soar high to the limitless sky, dude.
nothing is wilder than to dream. that's the starting point to be BIG. *petik kata2 anonymous* :P

enjoy the day. :D

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saya lambat belajar, tapi itu tidak bermakna saya tidak boleh belajar.

change

when we say we want to change,
we must first know whether we want to change for the better or for the worse.
we set our goal, we plan our actions and we move towards the change we want.

but sometimes, we change without we realise it but others do realise.

en. fikri.

haha.
u're 20 already.
big guy now. bwahaha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BOTA!!! <== *try to make the words look cheerful with the colours, but, they look so wrong* =PP
hope, in the future, nothing will never let you down.
u're a great guy and be great forever.

cheers. life.
:)

what if.s

"what if there is no one for me to cling on over there.
what if i get all whooze up and i cannot stand straight on my own.
what if i get scared and start thinking about backing out.
what if i want to love something but i'm too afraid to to that.
what if i my head can't think straight and get all blocked up.
.
.
.
.
.
and many more what ifs."

i wrote them down on a piece of paper.
take out a lighter.
burn it up.

and try to let all the worries go.
and try to let my mind be at peace.

*what if i just be myself?*
haha.
just shut up.
and live on.

risau itu, kadangkala, perlu.

kadangkala aku risau.
risau pada orang yang pandai bersuara tapi tiada isi.
risau pada orang yang banyak berkata tapi fakta daif.
risau pada orang yang hebat berbicara tapi ilmu cetek.
kerana ramai (mungkin) yang pandang pada luaran (kepetahan) bukan dalaman (fakta).

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kata khatib tadi, "ilmu bukan milik persendirian, tapi amanah Allah untuk disampaikan"
*ya, saya tidak tidur masa khutbah tadi*

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kadangkala menarik melihat orang berusaha yang betul-betul tegakkan apa yang dia rasa benar.
walaupun orang lain pandang hina akan usaha dia. (baca: memperlekeh)
perserverance, orang putih kata. cekal hati dan istiqamah, aku kata.

dan aku tanya diri aku, 'kau mampu tak buat macam dia?'
sekarang, aku masih geleng kepala.
keyakinan belum mekar. dan masih mencari.

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"pejal, what is true excitement?"
"when you feel content and your beloved ones are by your side; my definition"

randomZzz.

watched avatar again.
this time on 3D, babeh.
muahaha.

i like.

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packing is fun and tedious in the same time. yes.
i'm glad i'm doing this for something that i have been hoping for since, like, i was budak kecik lagi.

>taking deep breath<
excited; buying all those new stuff.
and happy; my family keeping on telling me what-to-bring and what-to-do things.
just to make sure i'm focusing on what am i doing right now. *guided*

>random words being strung up together to become sentences<

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ada org request aku masak.
mula2 pikir, cam lawak.
tapi, let me try once for you :P.
afterall, kat sana mmg kena masak sendiri gak kan.

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i watched gLee just now on 711.
suprisingly, my eyes were glued to the TV throughout the show.
maybe i love the musical part.
oh yes, it's a TV series.
and yes, it won a golden globes (best musical, if not mistaken).

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saya melakukan beberapa perkara kerana saya suka, kadangkala.
saya juga melakukan beberapa perkara kerana itu kewajipan.
saya berusaha untuk menjalankan kewajipan saya dengan hati yang gembira.
usaha itu penting. tapi tak lengkap tanpa kepercayaan.

Shila?

i know some may wondered yesternight why the MCs talked about Shila before Faizal Tahir performed.
the main reason was because Faizal Tahir has lung infection. he couldn't perform for the semi-final muzik2 comp as his infection was a little bit severe at that time. so, Shila was selected to take up his place. Thanx to her that Faizal can perform yesternight. She managed to sing Bencinta with power, i daresay. let us call it the female version of Bencinta. quite shaky at first, but i had goosebumps all over me as she strucked the high notes. she performed gloriusly~ Faizal should be proud of her. with proper guidance Shila should be one of the A-list malaysia singer. >or she has already been one?< :P

why did Faizal perform yesternight despite his illness?
he didn't want to disappoint his fans. he felt obliged to fulfil his fans expectation. and, yes, he really did his job well.

here's a link to Shila's performance.

AJL 24

watched AJL 24 in amazement...!!!
the best one i've ever watched.
i dunno how next year going to top this year's.

the introduction by siti nurhaliza and lan was very energetic and could already feel how this ajl is going to be; awesome.
MCs [ally, cheryl, faizal]; sesungguhnya berjaya buat aku golek2 atas lantai ketawa [read: rotfl].

overall; all performances were very superb. they were unique in their own way.
as i have posted b4 on my facebook i don't mind if either one of my choices win [faizal tahir, bunkface, aizat]
and the result made me happy.

these are the result.

RM 10000; vokal terbaik: black - aku rindu sayang kamu. [high-pitched voice; wow]
RM 10000; persembahan terbaik: aizat - kau aku. [yang ni aku bajet pejal tahir menang]

RM 12000; tempat ketiga: faizal tahir - bencinta
RM 15000; naib juara: yuna - dan sebenarnya
RM 35000; juara: aizat- pergi

faizal tahir; anda mendapat tempat ketiga walaupun anda tengah sakit. saya kagum dan hormat akan awak. your voice did blown me away walupun tiada 'tarik2'. you totally exceeded my expectation. YOU ROCK!
i wish you a speedy recovery~

yuna; saya suka intro persembahan. bermain ngan melodi macam orkestra. anda bertenaga dalam tenang. aura~

-saya puas hati-

muhaimin; for AJL this year, aku x jerit time pejal menang 3rd. my dad was in front of me. :P

itu dan ini.

currently, i'm listening to music at UN's blog.
seriusly, Un, you really have talent in choosing good songs.
i've already listening to the songs for some days now.

and just now, i came across a lenka's song called 'trouble is a friend'.
watching its music video remind me of teh wahida's drawing.
they are creative, unique and clearly depict the emotion that she wanted to express.
it's like i can feel what the character(s) in the drawing is(are) undergoing at that moment.

friends; you may not keep in touch with them often, but you can still 'feel' their presences through their arts and likings.

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i'm sorry i was/am never a good/excellent/wonderful friend that can be there by you side whenever you need me, that can share jokes of presents/past with you, that can understand your feelings, that can think about the future together with you, or anything else that you expect from me. yeah, use that, not who, as i am not human according to you. i can be a hypochrite. i can be back-stabber. i can be a moron. that is just me.

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on a positive note, Allah has given me the chance to go Down Under.

frankly, i have this mixed feelings inside here *pointing at my chest on the left hand side*. i'm happy, i'm nervous, i'm shocked, i'm excited, etc3. happens everytime whenever i'm going to a new place. :) but this is BIG; very new environment, culture, accent :P , mindset, etc3. in the end, i just have to say to myself, "this is going to be fun".

thank Him for giving me a very supportive family and friends who always be by my side till now. i'm very grateful and this gives me the motivation to strive further. <== baca dgn nada org dapat grammy award.

ok. now is the most perfect time to be serious...

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saya hanya akan berserah selepas berusaha. *pegangan*

0102.

do you know that those with dyslexia might read the title above as 2010 at first glance?
>just some random thought<

anyway, say HI to 2010 and toodle to 2009.

2009 proved to be one of my hard years.
many things didn't go out as planned.

2010, I must be stricter with myself this year
especially when it comes to books.
I lost my concentration and focus last year;
it was like I was searching for something else rather than knowledge.
this is bad.

people around me are getting much more mature in their actions
and I am still scared with what the future holds for me.

pen-off~