tiada

hati kosong

kau celaru

dunia kosong

.

tapi kau masih mampu terkenang

tapi kau masih mampu meratap

.

Quran di sana;

bukalah

cubalah faham

tapi kau tetap egois dengan Pencipta

dan kau masih berani kata

"tiada tempat aku di dunia,

semua sudah menghilang, tiada"

celaka,

kau yang menghilangkan diri dari semua

hati kau yang tak bersemuka dengan yang Esa

dan kau masih berani salahkan semua?

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dah nak dekat dua minggu aku kat Malaysia

several things on the to-do list dah checked;

-food; durian, manggis, dine at Syid Seafood, macaron,

-movies; puss in boots, tin tin, arthur christmas,

-mall; KLCC, OU,

these are only a few of the many on the list.

and byk lagi tempat nk kena pegi for shopping

and owh, i passed 2nd year. despite all the ruffles i went through this year. self-inflicted ruckus

couldn't bring myself to study, distraction, worries. yada2...

certainly a reminder for next year.

dah tak boleh main2 for the clinical years, naya nanti.

and just knew that one of my respected teachers is transferring to another school.

another big loss to my alma mater.

immensely dedicated in everything she does.

*kurang seorang cikgu nak gossip with kalau singgah sekolah =P

-aku banyak belajar dari beliau-

cuti nih, tambah berat badan je la. makan tak bercatu; enjoying the moment.

yada2.

when studying absorbs the soul out of you,

all you can think is, "why am i doing this?"

4 papers je pejal.

bertahan.

i always have good faith on others when it comes to exam, but seldom on myself.

confidence dah terhakis sikit demi sikit.

i'm babbling because i'm worried.

this year hasn't turned out the way i wanted.

many results are below my expectation, even the paper that i was quite confidence of.

i yearn for more.

and i know i can do better.

this is troubling me to the extent that i am doubting myself.

and breaking down 2 days before the first paper is not a good way to go.

anyhow, life must go on.

and these papers must be dealt with.

at least, i got home to look forward to after the exam. :)

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why do people turn to psychiatrist and counselors (read: strangers) but not those that are close to them?

1) these strangers are experts in their fields

2) they do not want to burden their loved ones with their problems. even the loved ones have their own.

3) telling the loved ones certain things might jeopardise the relationship. the least they want when in a problematic situation is having emotional issue with the loved ones.

i would really love to tell this to those i love, "dude/babe, you are my darling, and accepting you in my life, i'm ready for your best and for your worst. because why darling? i understand how it felt to bottle up those emotions and waiting for them to burst at any moment"

pfft, as if telling those as easy as they seem .....

this post is rather emotionally draining.

-

dalam dunia kita, kita bermaharajalela

di luar, kita ditindas.

dan kita terus biar diri kita ditindas.

takut.

tiada keyakinan.

kurang kemahiran.

kerana kita masih dalam takuk minda lama.

sadly, these are also how i describe myself.

Exams and Holiday

During the wait for SPM's result, I ask myself, will there be any other exams that create never ending worry every time I think about it.

The answer is this semester.

Never in my life I have this feeling when answering exam papers. The uneasiness, anxiety & furious-heart-beating moment after the first glance at the questions was simply unbearable.

For SAQ, after reading all the 29 questions, I felt a sudden chill back in my spine and I went blank for quite a while. After realising that panicking will not do any wonders, I just grabbed my pen and scribbling down answers.

For MEQ, the difficulty is pretty much the same, but I have seen SAQ before, thus my mind and soul were adapted to the situation.

For MCQ; well, let just say the if-one-paper-is-hard-the-others-will-be-easy condition was never applied to this semester's exam papers.

Anatomy, the only reason I really looked forward to it is to get everything done and over with. The paper was OK which was quite a nice cherry-on-top thing to ease bit of my tsunami-sed feelings. I have never been soooooooo happy in my life that exams are over.

After anatomy, I went to watch Cars 2 with Yuhin & Syuaib. to unwind the tangled mind.

On that night of the same day, 6 of us Malaysian had a trip to watch Mary Poppins (musical theater) which was AWESOME~!!!

Can't wait for the holiday with my family next month.

cinta?

dalam ribuan malam,

antara jutaan bintang,

kau tetap yang bersinar terang,

yang paling tegar dalam ingatan.

kala siang menjengah,

membawa pergi cahaya mu,

aku tetap menunggu,

untuk malam kembali.

Oh, the northern star of my heart.

Shine forever, please?

For a dirt of the Earth to ask,

My favour is too much, I know.

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ok, too much of these mushy2 posts.

but, writing about them are, in a way, easy to relate to for many of us.

love.

hatred.

satisfaction.

frustration.

life.

death.

they are what we see, experience, observe and do where death will be the finale of the events.

our God-given bodies, soul, minds and hearts are tested in every way and angle be it joy or despair.

human.

the simplest word to sum up all of them.

when I see myself in the mirror, sometimes I ask, "Who are you going to be today?".

Will I smile or frown?

Will I laugh or cry?

Will I be able to breathe until the end of the day?

The never ending questions.

Then I choose to let go off the worry, and be carefree.

But after you observe the love/hatred relationships of others, I choose to worry again.

"Will it be me next?"

I guess I get too worry of something that I should not.

Then I choose I write all the posts as if I am in those positions.

"What happen when I get heartbroken?"

"What happen when love has long begone?"

But there is one thing I seldom ask myself.

"What if I am really in love?"

Fifty people one question.

There are videos on youtube that gather people to ask them one same question.

And this one asked them about what you regret about your life.

Regret.

One word that can make people pause and think for many hours.

Pause to recall all the moments that you can revisit.

Think, what can be done to change that.

I regret of being a coward; not brave enough to take risk.

I regret of being stupid; not seeing the many opportunities lay ahead.

I regret of having many lifeless moment; physically and emotionally.

There are even times I regret of being myself.

But then reality smacked me on the head.

Whatever or whoever I am now, is who I am should be proud of, at least for myself.

But, I shall try to make things I shall not regret later.

(Another) but, I am used to regret things, you see. *cursing myself*

Sampai malas nak berubah. <== haisyh

Sekarang, kembali kepada buku2 tebal dan nota. *sarcastic smile*

dunia

jinakkan hati mu dengan cinta

maniskan dirimu dengan senyuman.

tapi jangan jinak sampai lemah dayus.

tapi jangan manis sampai dijilat lunyai.

dunia itu kejam,

kalau itu yang kau pilih.

.

biarkan?

Si A:

"aku tahu semua itu,

apa itu halal,

apa itu haram,

tapi hati masih belum terima cahaya,

jiwa masih bergolak,

minda masih bercelaru,

nanti2 aku usaha kan"

Si B:

"tolong tiada nanti2,

tiada pasti esok masih muncul buat kita,

tiada tentu kita akan sempat kembali ke pangkal,

mulakan lah langkah pertama,

tetapkan lah langkah2 mu ke jalan satu,

aku kata semua ini pada kamu,

sebab aku kasih akan kamu"

Si A:

"argh!! apa kau tahu pasal aku,

kau dan aku berbeza hidupnya,

aku terumbang ambing di sini,

kau selesa di tempat hidup mu,

aku susah dengan hidup begini,

kamu senang lah nak buat segala yang putih bersih"

Si B:

"susah itu ujian,

senang itu ujian,

aku dulu macam kamu,

penuh kabur dan nafsu,

ku syukur semua itu hanyalah kisah lampau ku,

ku ambil langkah ku dikit2,

pada awalnya aku hendak mengalah,

tetapi syukur ada sahabat yang sudi menghulur tangan,

aku rendahkah ego ku,

ku cuba buka minda ku,

dan kini aku mahu cuba tolong mu,

kerana diri ini pernah seperti kamu"

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mereka yang kau kata sudah terpesong,

sanggup kah kau biarkan mereka tetap terpesong,

kau jauhkan diri kamu dari mereka,

mahu menjaga diri, kononnya,

sedangkan kau malu diri tak mampu,

aku tahu, kerana aku macam kamu~~~

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proses penyelongkaran drafts yang dah berhabuk.

got some/many writings being listed as drafts, maybe because:

1) they are too controversial back then

2) i forget to click "publish post"

now, since i am busy with studying (tergelak sinis kepada diri sendiri), maybe i'll just post these unposted stuffs that were put on hold for too long.

ayway, this stuff above that i wrote,

is not about people I've encountered, but only heard of.

and I found it interesting because:

1)bravery is never my thing especially to really talk about the matter above

2)people tends to label rather understand. *lets judging be only to Him*

3)we tend to try solve the litttle brittle problem, seldom the core. (e.g. an article from saiful islam website)

4)and everything is never a one-day process. it may take months, years or even decades.

anyway, my exam start on 14th june till 23rd june. then, 3 weeks winter holiday. yay

Blue Mountain

On Wednesday,

Nasriq, Lokey & I went to the Blue Mountain for the second time since x buat apa sangat during the first visit.

Specifically, we went to Echo Point and Scenic World.

Bertolak dari Macarthur station menuju ke Katoomba station, a 3ish-hour ride.

Atas train bajet nak baca nota.

Lepas sejam lebih, straight sumbat nota balik dalam beg and enjoy the scenery outside.

Sejam before sampai, makan self-cooked nasi goreng for breakfast.

Then, sampai2 je, had a brief photography at Kingsford Smith Memorial Park's entrance kat atas.

Pastu, beli Subway (the usual one-foot Seafood Sensation) utk bekal lunch nanti.

Tunggu bas 686 kat depan Carlington Hotel.

Dan menuju Echo Point.

Echo Point

Basically, there is a look out for the Three Sisters (three giant rock/hill/wuteva side by side)

And I still wonder why I suddenly like to take pictures of rocks. hurm

Anyway, the highlights of the journey is the Three Sister Walk.

There is a pathways to the Three Sisters' back/side to get a clearer view of the humongous rock.

And to make things more adventurous, we tried the Giant Stairways which is long ride down/up.

There are 800+ steps. Steep and not uniform steps. After only descended 300 steps, I gave up. Nak asthma dada ni. Lepas sampai kat atas, jantung mcm kena sawan, gila laju berdetak. Tengok Nasriq, sama pancit cam aku. tengok Lokman, cool je maintain muka hanya berpeluh tanpa termengah2.

Scenic World

We took a 686 bus again, now to Scenic World.

The main attractions are the cable cars ride and the tour down below after taking the Scenic Railway/ Scenic Cableway.

Kitorang naik Scenic Railway dulu. It is a two way ride with sceneries of the nearby wonders (mountains, waterfall, etc). kat tengah2 ada cermin boleh see through ke bawah.

Pastu turun bawah nak gi pathways guna Scenic Railway. Sampai bawah, pusing2 the pathway & gi tgk waterfall yang more like dribbling rather than 'fall'. Tak hujan sangat kot.

Time the self-tour, kitorang solat and lunch with Subways yang beli before this.

Then balik naik atas guna Scenic Cableway.

Naik bas 696 balik ke bandar.

Sampai sana, pergi balik kat Kingsford Smith Memorial Park.

Ada jumpa taman kat bawah tu.

OMG, lawa.

Selamat Nasriq ngan Lokey paksa turun.

Sejam habis tangkap gambar.

Gambar kat FB Nasriq lagi lah mantap.

Very the picturesque.

Habis dah.

Pastu balik.

*Gila rojak bahasa. =.=

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Have you ever felt that tingling feeling in your heart;

where you want to cry but you can't even shed a tear?

where you want to scream but no voice come out?

Your heart feels empty,

But somehow it is filled with negativity.

Your mind feels like running,

But away from the light, towards nothingness.

You feel anger.

You feel frustrated.

You are unable to decipher your own feeling.

You are unable to understand your own self.

Every kind words from others,

You reply harshly.

Every jokes uttered,

You take it very seriously.

Every cloud passing by,

You can only expect rain to pour down instantly.

Your mouth is sealed.

Your emotions are waiting to erupt...

*I can only ask for your patience. But, I'll never expect you to sustain it that long.

Channel your emotion to me, I'm ready.

Or, if I'm MIA, to God you should talk to. 24/7 wireless service everywhere, anywhere.

of Easter holiday

I'm officially on Easter holiday.

Pejal: Mana buku dan nota2 ni.

*cari2**letak buku & nota atas meja**baca*

Pejal: Haisyh, apa ke benda "calvaria" nih.

*search wikipedia**baca**perasan ada fb notification**stuck with FB for hours*

Pejal: Astaghfirullah.

*geleng2 kepala**baca nota balik*

Pejal: Apa benda lak "branches of trigeminal nerve" ni?

*search wikipedia**dlm hati: ooooo, more notification**

few more hours wasted*

Pejal: Ya Rabbi

*baca nota**menguap**tido*

And this is what we call as holiday's life cycle. Insert solat, eating, personal moments wherever appropriate.

-Yes, I rely on wiki too much. Can't imagine how my sisters studied their stuffs without it

-And yes, I'm easily distracted. *sambil scroll through FB and tumblr*

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Tadi gi Bondi Beach.

Dengan harapan nak tengok sunrise.

Ada la sunrise, tapi tercover dengan bukit.

Must search for sunrise watch place yang kuar dari laut *not 'kuar dari laut' literally*

You know, like this:

http://www.disassociated.com/2009/02/12/photo-sunrise-at-sydneys-coogee-beach/

Must go to coogee beach after this to have a pic of this panorama

*acece pejal, kat malaysia takde la ghairah nak cari sunrise pelbagai*

well, I *we* do tend to appreciate things at other places besides your own.

Lagipun, kat Malaysia, selalunya bangun2, matahari dah nak terbenam.

Camne nk tgk sunrise kan? *pfft*

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And one more thing to do during this holiday.

Easter Show!

Nah~ never been to one before.

Dunno much what to expect.

What I know, they have rides and stuffs.

and also exhibition sepert arnab, kuda dan byk lagi.

and, I really dunno anything else about it.

Need to go to know la kan?

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Saya nak amek hati awak, cantum dengan hati saya.

Tapi itu macam mencuri.

Kalau macam tu,

Biar awak amek hati saya.

Saya rela.

*mushy much? Deal with it. :P

Reefqi fly.

Message rasmi kepada dewi agung.

"Ya ReeFQi~~~!!!

Sorry that none of us three can't send you off to land of matahari terbit (despite Australia lagi cepat from Japan).

You, without fail, sent us off despite the weird timings (mine was when you had exam/test in several days) . And we really appreciate that. We can only send our prayer and thought for you, hoping for the very best for your journey to and throughout your time in Japan.

And nasihat rasmi aku kepada sesiapa yang naik kapal terbang; Jangan try nak goda mana2 pramugara/pramugari. Jangan ngada2 nak menggedik ngan laki/pompuan seat sebelah ko (unless he/she is ur hubby/wife). Jangan berdengkur kuat sangat, ada ramai lagi passenger kat dalam plane tu (nasihat random tambahan)

Anyway. Seriously. Play safe....with all the robotic equipment. Bahaya kot benda2 elektrik nih.

Salam"

negatif atau manusia?

sedih kan?

kalau asyik disalah erti.

geram kan?

kalau asyik dipandang tepi.

marah kan?

kalau asyik diracun hati.

kala sedih menjengah,

mahu sahaja biar tangisan berpanjangan.

kala geram meresap,

mahu sahaja biar suara tinggi bergetar.

kala marah merasuk,

mahu sahaja biar penumbuk bertemu muka.

tapi aku tahu,

tangisan lama bukan pengubat hiba.

tapi aku tahu,

jeritan menggila bukan penawar celaru.

tapi aku tahu,

membalas ganas bukan mereda hati yang panas.

ku salurkan tangisan ku pada Yang Pemurah.

ku lamakan kata2 ku pada Yang Mendengar.

ku abdikan diri ku pada Yang Esa.

seusai tidur.

ku cari teman.

lepaskan yang terbuku di jiwa.

ku kongsikan.

seusai cerita.

ku mampirkan diri ke alam.

mencari ketenangan.

dengan lukisan Dia.

seusai puas perhati.

ku cari diri dalam diri.

jangan biar diri puas ratapi.

kesedihan yang lama pergi.

tapi, aku tetap aku.

masih merasa semula perasaan itu.

aku manusia.

akur akan asli diri ku.

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kawal lah insan, akan diri itu.

perasaan itu akan tetap hadir.

tapi kau akan pilih:

-biar perasaan merobek jiwa, atau

-salurkan perasaan pada alam yang luas

only He knows.

hurm.

I feel plainly nothing throughout the previous 4.5 days (monday to mid friday)

Out of sudden, this 'kacau bilau' moment seeps in, very deeply.

Tetibe rasa beban.

What make it worse, i can't really understand the gravity of the situation.

The weird feeling is just there.

Petanda kena start study nih.

kenalan

Di kedai buku.

A: Ha, Faidzal. Long time no see. Kau mesti dah tak ingat nama aku kan?

Faidzal: Long time no see gak, >nama penuh A<. Pergh dah besar dah ko *nada makcik2 yang prihatin*

*continue basa-basi*

*priceless moments when you still remember their names when they don't expect it.*

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Terserempak di kedai makan.

B: Faidzal. Apa khabar? *berbasa basi*

Faidzal: Hi! *berbasa basi gak*

.

.

.

B: K r ciow dulu.

Faidzal: tata

*Selamat dia x suruh tanya nama, sumpah x ingat. At least ingat muka*

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Di majlis keramaian

C: Faidzal. Ingat aku lagi tak?

Faidzal: .....

C: tak ingat la tu.

Faidzal: .....

C: takpe2. at least ko ingat muka aku.

Faidzal: .....

Pastu jumpa D sekali

D: Hi C, What's up?

C: Siling, Wei, Faidzal tak ingat aku dowh.

Faidzal: .....

D: Budak ni memang camni. Maafkan la dia

Faidzal: =.=

C blah.

Borak2 ngan D.

Faidzal: Serius tak ingat.

D: *Memberi biodata C* Tak ingat lagi?

Faidzal: Seriusly satu kelas dulu? =.="

D: Mangkuk r ko.

*Damn*

tralalala

Reading back all my previous posts.

I laughed, giggled and puked a bit.

Haha.

Even I can believe myself writing all those words.

Watching myself entering to different levels of life, is sure do fun.

Main purpose of writing in this blog has been accomplished, within this short time.

More to come, perhaps~

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Trying to start doing PBL...

After 10minutes into reading some Anatomy stuffs, "Ooooo, notifications"

Stop 'for a while'.

Then realised that 1 hour has passed.

Regret, read back from the start since has forgotten what I read previously.

10 minutes later, "Ooooo, another notification"

Darn it~

Yup, I thank to God for FB is famous after my SPM.

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I am trying to do something randoms here and there.

I am a boring person, so by doing some unpredictable things, maybe it can spice things up.

Maybe.

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OWH~!!!

mesti berjimat cermat.

ramble.

Can I Just smack you hard on the forehead,

and kiss it back passionately?

You are adorably annoying.

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Dah nak masuk week 6.

Dah masuk Musculoskeletal System.

And, cuti mid-sem lagi sebulan, woot2.

UWS & Kumon

sudah satu minggu di UWS untuk tahun kedua.

ho yeah.

mari semangat~!!!

ok, masih mood bercuti.

PBL punya kerja pun tak mula lagi.

this is not good.

nak present lagi dua hari.

dan esok dah bertambah homework; tutorial PPD. *ho yeah*

persevere my dear mind and soul.

*tarik nafas dalam2*

*jangan hyperventilate*

ok, sem ni ada tiga systems.

renal.

musculoskeletal.

neuro.

sekarang tengah menelaah buah pinggang.

nephron yang halus tapi amat penting.

pundi kencing yang perlu dikosong kala sudah terima isyarat *tahan lama2, kesian kat pundi nak tahan*

and others.

hoh, rasa seperti ilmuwan. tapi masuk tutorial aritu, rasa seperti kanak2 blur. haisyh.

gila mengarut.

oh lagi satu.

masuk praktikal anatomi, dah kena sergah ngan doktor.

minta posterior abdo wall, tergasi anterior. haisyh

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teringat masa hantar niece ke kumon.

jam kul 6.00ptg

hantar budak kecik masuk kelas.

time nak hantar mereka, ada student 8 tahun tanya cikgu kumon;

student: cikgu, asar habis kul brape?

cikgu: er? lebih kurang 7.15. nape?

student: saya tak sembahyang lagi. saya nak sembahyang dulu jap eh?

cikgu: *senyum dan angguk2*

student pun blah gi cari surau la kot.

cikgu still muka terkesima sedikit, mungkin first time budak 'hingusan' tanya pasal waktu solat.

aku time darjah 2 pun sembahyang still liat.

dia dah risau takut habis waktu solat.

Ya Allah, dalam kelam moral kini,

masih terpancar sinaran.

terima kasih kerana beri aku peluang untuk menjadi saksi.

dan semoga student tadi terus mendapat bimbingan-Mu.

09/02/2011

Alang2 bapa hendak ke KL, daku pun pergi lah ke KL Sentral nak renew grads card dengan harapan nak naik MAS tahun ni balik Malaysia. Selamat Lokey call semalam, t'trigger la juga nak renew. Sampai around 9 dan bapa akan ambil daku di Jalan Tuanku Rahman around 12. Ok, bosan tak tahu nak buat apa.

Lepas dah renew, pergi la McD. Mengidam big breakfast la pulak. Hash Brown tambah lagi satu. Lepas beli, letak la makanan di atas satu meja dan pergi la nak ambil sos dan gula. On the way ke tempat sos, ada mak cik cleaner McD menghalang perjalanan. Maka sebagai insan berbudi bahasa, aku cakap lah 'tumpang lalu cik' dengan penuh sopan santun. Mak cik cleaner pun memberi laluan, lalu daku ambil sos dan gula. Dah duduk, letak sos kat roti dan sapu guna plastik letak sos tu. Dan2 mak cik cleaner datang lalu berkata, 'ni lupa ambil sudu garfu' sambil tersenyum dan memberi sudu garfu berplastik kepada daku. Aku stunned. Aku senyum balik dan ucapkan terima kasih, tetiba teringat cerita Khurafat part mak cik tua gasi makanan kat Johan. Ok, pemikiran negatif perlu dibuang. Tengok mak cik cleaner td, takde pun stare aku macam mak cik dalam cerita Khurafat. Ok, serius kena fikir benda lain. Sambil tuang gula dalam kopi,teringat ada seorang tu yang letak gula satu tan dalam kopi dia. *cough* Reefqi *cough* bwahaha. Ok, minda, sila cari idea baru.

Apa nak buat? Baru pukul 10.30. Fikir 5 minit. 'Since Jalan Tuanku Rahman turun kat Chow Kit Monorail, singgah Times Squre jap lah'. Yes! idea bijak. Sampai Times Square, blur pulak nak buat apa. Singgah Borders jap. Bosan gak. Maka, kaki pun pergi lah ke Secret Recipe, badan dan anggota lain turut serta, of course. Lepas gian kat Chocolate Indulgence. Kat Australia, Melbourne je aku tahu ada Secret Recipe. Dan2 teringat akan Chan di India yang tak gemar Tiramisu. *acece*

Jam dah pukul 11.40, pastu teringat yang bapa kata tunggu kat sogo bahagian Jalan Tuanku Rahman. *bahaya teringat separuh ayat je*. Kalau gitu, kena naik LRT Ampang line. Interchange kat Hang Tuah. Pastu ke Bandaraya.

Dalam Sogo, alan2 bapa akan terlewat sikit, maka bersiar2 la kejap di bahagian jual beli pakaian. Nampak jeans half price. Hehe. Beli

Nampak shorts dikaun. Hehe. Beli.

Shopping sambil sms Bota yang bakal berangkat ke China untuk meningkatkan ekonomi negara itu. Happy je gaya segala reply.*aku mampu shopping sini je, Bota*

Dan naik lah kereta bersama2 bapa ke rumah datuk dan nenek. Minta restu sebelum berangkat pulang ke bukan tanah air Jumaat ini. Gusar sungguh perasaan. Kat sana dah takde Acap sms 'Jal, jom kuar esok'. =P nak suruh Akbar ganti r. *aku rasa Akbar pernah ajak. cuma tak terpenuh lagi permintaan. tahun ini akan cuba* *cough* Macarthur ke City sejam kot *cough*

gila rambling tak tentu hala.

mana2 guru bahasa, harap ampunkan segala kerojakan dan ketidaktentuan tatabahasa.

Only He knows the best.

movies

Movies that I’ve watched

1) Khurafat

Seronok ‘melihat’ *baca: tutup mata selalu* kebangkitan wayang Malaysia dalam genre seram. Takde lah asyik nak mengharap pada hantu terbang yang terkantoi ada tali ke apa. Cerita ni ada umph *kalau tak, takde lah aku asyik tutup mata :P*. Pantang dengar muzik dah pelik, tangan dah sedia di mata, badan disenget ke tepi dan tunggu jeritan kakak dan abang di sekeliling *panggung wayang penuh kot*.

2) Christmas Carol

I should have watched in 3D when it came out. Love the visual, cinematography, whatever you name it. Quite scary though in some parts: Jacob Marley’s comeback and the Spirit of Christmas Future. Can imagine kiddies who were expecting an innocent movie getting terrified watching these two scenes. Anyway, very classy. Do hope that Harry Potter can be expressed in this kind of visual, full version without any cut of the plot. *drooling in happiness from only thinking about it*

3) Black Swan

I dunno how to really describe this movie. Sick? Deep? It was amazing in a dark way. Natalie Portman really nailed it in this one. Her portrayal of Nina was simply perfect. She deserves the Globe Award. Again, it was totally sick in a superb way. Really gave an insight of what a psychotic person would think and act. But, for a warning, DO NOT WATCH IF YOU ARE EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE. It could make you more depressed. *Like watching Changeling*

4) The King’s Speech

Tears in my eyes. Like Natalie up there, Colin Firth does deserve the Globe Award. It is mediocre to act as a commoner. It’s hard to act the upper-class. It’s like damn difficult to act out a stammer men. Kudos Colin. The movie is inspiring; overcoming your since-childhood problem in a brave way. Understanding the source of a problem rather than attacking it blindfoldedly. It’s always marvellous to have a friend who know what you need rather than what you want.

5) The Social Network

Not la intense as what some said. *Acece, sape la ckp intense* Frankly, I felt sad whenever Eduador tell his part of the story. The betrayal vs trust thingy. On the other hand, for Mark (in the film) to maintain his poker face throughout the rough journey was impressive. I would say, the actors really added wonderful flavours to the movie. I like how all the actor can be perfect in their respective roles and to really indulge into the movie without have to criticise their performances here and there.

Kamal Bookstore

Kata Kamal Bookstore:

“WE ARE OPENED ON ALL THE DAYS EXCEPT HARI RAYA HAJI & HARI RAYA PUASA

BUSINESS HRS:

MON- SAT- 9.00 A.M TO 8.00 P.M

SUNDAY- 9.00 A.M TO 2.00 P.M ”

They are quite fast in replying my email. Within 24 hours. Talking about efficiency. =)

Any inquiry to them, just email kmedical@streamyx.com . Or give ‘em a call 03-40210575.

*Kalau mereka tak reply email, send them one more time. Terlepas pandang tu*

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I’ve been to Kamal several times before.

Dulu nak teman kakak beli, sekarang kena beli untuk diri sendiri. =) Quite an excellent place to buy affordable medical books. Lots and lots of medical books. Don’t be deceived by its outer appearance. Macam kedai runcit biasa je tengok dari luar. Masuk2, pergh, macam library. (exaggerate :P) Selalu pergi naik kereta je. Opposite HKL kat Jalan Pahang. Of course bring my dad along, with my ‘ketidakmahiran’ in parking. :P

Tapi pernah sekali try ngan public. Naik monorail, turun kat Chow Kit. Turun2 station, yakin je jalan. Rupa2nya kat Jalan Ipoh. =.=”. Buka la juga GPS kat phone yang murah dari iPhone. Nak ke sana, turun dari station Chow Kit (baca: turun tangga), belok kiri (jangan terus lintas jalan dan belok kanan, itu ke Jalan Ipoh) ke arah belakang sikit. If you come across a lot of shops on your first 50 steps, tu Jalan Ipoh la namanya, sila patah balik.

Picture extracted from all-lovable Google (Map). Aku tokok tambah sesedap hati.

Minggu lepas gi beli some books there, Patho, Anat, Clinical Exam; and a penlight too (pen yang cahaya, if you dunno what it is. This is one of the things in med that i’m still ‘jakun’ to play with besides stethoscope and tendon hammer =D).

Sekarang, tinggal packing and fly away. Yosh~!

outings

I went to i-City (near Seksyen 7) with my bro-in-law, sis & nieces.

The fees:

-Entry with a car: RM10

-Snow Village/Room/wuteva-they-call-it: RM25 (can use the RM10 entry ticket to get RM10 discount - *updated*only for one person)

-Zoo Thingy; got animal (patung) decorated with lights: RM 2. (still can use the RM10 entry ticket)

*The RM10 entry can only be used in either one.

We went into the Snow Village. Sejuk Giler~ We heard it was -10⁰C (Kalau tak negative, susah la nak maintain kebekuan kan?). It was not just sight-seeing inside. There are three slides that you can play.

1)Mini-sledge. Yang macam Santa Claus guna, tapi kecik nya. Ais licin = less friction = agak laju. :P ada bahagian tak rata, so there was a slight bump. *Baru rasa macam terbang sikit kan?*

2)Slide guna mini tikar. Macam main gelongsor biasa. Dia gasi tikar kecik nak alas punggung *ais basah* Fun jugak r.

3)Doughnut. You sit in the middle of doughnut yang tak berlubang. Then, the abang jaga slide ni akan tarik the doughnut to make it (and you) swirl around masa turun.

*All names are created by the writer sesedap hati sebab tak tau the real names*

And jalan2 kat sekitar. I-City is famous for its pembaziran elektrik untuk menyalakan lampu kat pokok dan haiwan2 ciptaan. Nice place for photography and such.

And dengar cerita nak ada wayang kat situ. *Harap2 the RM10 entry can be used :P*

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Went out with Bota, Qari & Acap at Times Square on Thaipusam Day.

Activities:

-They tortures me with “Apa Kaitan” teka teki. Don’t ask me about, I still don’t get it.

-Wayang cerita Khurafat. Macam biasa, aku tutup mata half of the story. Banyak terkejut. Style macam Shutter *the shocks*. Nice to know that Malaysian cinematic experience is getting better nowadays. *I’m not talking about 2 Alam*

- Beli barang kat Low Yat. *terserempak Chola, dah tinggi panjang. Aku tanya apa tips? Dia jawab, jangan makan sayur =.=”*

- Dinner kat Food Court Low Yat. *ada orang belanja Big Apple, slurp*

- Many laughter.

The only outing aku tak jejak KTM. Pagi naik LRT Taman Jaya since father was OTW to somewhere.

That night balik to LRT Kelana Jaya since my sis faham ketidakefisienan KTM. *like*

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Went out with jejaka J-One & wanita J-Two at OU on the next day.

-Arif (adik Lokey)

-Haikal

-Lokey

-Syafiq

-Intan

-Safura

-Sarah

-Zubaidah @ Jubet

Activities:

- Gelak banyak2 sampai kenyang.

- Lunch kat Carl’s Junior

- Baseball kat Roof

- Dinner kat Baskin Robbin (Lupa nak proper dinner that night, so assume this as dinner) *Jag air buat harta*

My dad hantar sampai OU sebab gi KL in the morning.

Then my mum amek kat KTM Shah Alam. *thanx Lokey hantar sampai KTM Subang*

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On Saturday, had a cosy family outing at Sunway Hotel.

Fasa bersenang lenang bersama-sama keluarga.

Sampai2, nak lunch kat food court. I just knew there is a food court kat Sunway Pyramid. Gi Jusco level LG2. OTW there, terserempak with the J-Oneights. HiHi.

Lepas dah lunch join diorg kat J.Co

- Ma’il

- Rhymie

- Syafiq

- Ecah

- Naddy

- Nadiah J.

Join sekejap dah tergelak. :P

Lepas diorg balik, berehat2 kat bilik, then dinner kat Asian Avenue dengan family.

The next morning, gi mandi-manda kat swimming pool. Pool kat tower sebelah.

*dah lama x berendam*

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A circle has no beginning. Potong somewhere in the middle. Make it a line.

of mind.

Deactivate facebook buat sementara waktu.

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Ramai yang khusyuk kala khatib bergempita.

Tetapi tetap tercari-cari tika agama diasingkan di luar masjid.

*Peringatan buat diri*

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Dalam lewa aku berkata2 gelak ketawa

Dalam terawang2 tidak sedar, penuh gembira,

Ku biarkan bait2 kata keji lepas begitu sahaja,

Tanpa sedar bahana yang bakal menimpa.

Dalam sepi ada hati yang terluka

Dalam diam ada perasaan rasa dihina,

Aku terpaku sesal, sesal tiada guna,

Terfikir solusi yang tidak akan ada makna.

Hati berbicara sedang mulut terkunci

Emosi bercampur, minda bagai terhenti

Kabut untuk merungkai benci yang bersemi

Masa depan sudah kabur tiada cahaya menanti.

Aku biarkan dunia berlari laju

Biarkan diri menggapai yang mana mampu,

Kekuatanku tidak pernah pada pemikiran ku

Teresak-esak bagaimana mahu menggalas dengan padu.

*Seorang insan yang lemah menghayati erti kehidupan penuh cubaan, terutama yang disebabkan oleh diri sendiri. *

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Pak Cik Kedai: Ni dah form berapa?

Aku: *Eh?* Dah kat uni dah *tersenyum*

Kawan bapa: Sekolah form berapa?

Aku: Dah masuk uni, uncle. *tersenyum*

Awet muda la katakan~ :P

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“If I've learned anything, it's that we can never let the chaos and injustice make us so blind with anger we become part of the problem. Understanding, compassion, kindness, and love are the only true evolutionary ideals. When we compromise those, we become what we despise and we lose our humanity.” June Harris in “Bones” (episode: Soccer mom in the mini-van)

*We try to revolutionise the world into our own definition of ideal. But one problem is, we = many. There are lots of ‘ideal’ with one concept of ideal is further defined into many subdefinitions. This is where we truly forget that it is us who are trying to live in this world, not some aliens of perfection. Thus, the true ‘perfection’ is following the concept of human being and that is what the above quotation lies true in my mind. However, this is only one of the concepts of an ideal world. *

minggu lepas

Singgah Kamal Bookstore kat Jalan Pahang, mahu lihat harga sebelum betul2 membeli nanti.

Hasil dapatan:

· Gray’s Anatomy – RM95

· Talley O’Connor – RM 75

· Robbins & Cotran Patho – RM175

· Anatomy flashcard

o Gray’s – RM85

o Netter’s – RM 85

o Rohen – RM115

· Patho flashcard – RM80 (Robbins & Cotran)

· Rohen Color Atlas of Anatomy – RM215

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Tron Legacy:

-Grafik smart *drool*

-Olivia was good *watak blur2 innocent yang hot ketika berlawan*

- Plot was quite cliché (acece)

- Skrip bagai tidak kena sangat

- Grafik smart. :P

Narnia:

- A wonderful fairy tale

- A so-so movie

- Plot banyak klimaks yang cepat terlerai (no building up)

- Aslan; what’s your function selain tukar Eustace balik jadi manusia? Baik ko mengaum awal2, senang hidup (but there will be no plot la then)

Easy A

- An excellent comedy

- Emma Stone was flawless for this character

- The subplots (the adopted son, the past of Olive’s mother) were equally funny

- I like the way it was told (webcam); macam imbas kembali

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It took one freaking month for AUD to strengthen against other currencies.

But it just took one week for it to plummet. =.=”

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Niece: Pak Su, 1+3 apa?

Pak Su: 4

Niece: Salah

Pak Su: *alahai, main soalan trick lak budak nih* 13

Niece: Salah gak

Pak Su: *Soalan trick mana budak ni pakai lak?* Abeh tu, apa jawapan dia?

Niece: B.

I’m enlightened.

AJL 25

AJL 25:

kritikan tak bertauliah dari insan ini...

yuna (cinta sempurna)

-vokal, as expected

-like the prop (pokok besar);dalam maksud tu.

tomok (berlari)

-benarlah seperti orang kata, suara dah tak sengau

-sekali tengok macam adam lambert. ho ho ho

API (pelita)

-vokal, ok.

-like the opening lighting.

shahir (kebahagian dalam perpisahan)

-perempuan itu seperti mengganggu persembahan

-vokal macam mendatar throughout

MUH & black (drama king)

-persembahan pertama yang sampai 'feel' dia

-vokal, as expected form Black

-like the rhythm

hafiz (noktah cinta)

-vokal, boleh tahan (jarang dengar lagu dia)

-rhytym, sway-able (liuk2 ikut rentak)

-very like the gimik. haha

ana raffali (tolong ingatkan aku)

-vokal, may i say it was weak. (the judges didn't agree though)

-rhythm best

faizal tahir (selamat malam)

-loves everything

-the drama was sweet. :)

_i'm biased_ :P but you can't deny the awesome-ness.

-suara macam tahan sikit. affected by past infection?

adira (ku ada kamu)

-vokal, boleh tahan.

bunkface (ekstravaganza)

-very like going to a gig (yeza); very energetic

-muka Sam macam tengah high. haha

-like the slow part

black (sofea jane)

-vokal, sedap

-a very innocent song

faizal tahir (hanyut)

-like the new music arrangement

-his high note still left me wanting.

-surprises here and there. fresh ideas.

stacy (jahat)

-energetic, as usual

-ada part macam jerit

-enjoyable, still

hujan (mencari konklusi)

-a new music arrangement gak?

-vokal; mendatar.

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Result:

Persembahan terbaik: Hanyut (faizal tahir); very worth it :)

Vokal terbaik: Noktah Cinta (hafiz); x bajet haha

Tempat ketiga: Noktah Cinta (hafiz)

Tempat kedua: Drama King (Meet Uncle Hussein & Black)

Tempat pertama: Tolong Ingatkan Aku (Ana Raffali) <== aku x tau tang mana dia gempak.

well hey, that's competition.

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i enjoy the theme where they recap the past winners.

nostalgic.

the 3 supernovas (as said by elly), were epic.

that's the standard for what music should be.

the main elements of music must not be put aside; vocal, rhythm & lyrics (well, my definition)

if either one is missing, the song will left you wanting.

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also, the emcees must be given credits.

serius penceria keadaan.

FBI, elly iskandar, cheryl samad; do be emcess for next year as well.

just in case next year shows are like this year's.

azam?

sudah 2011.

the feelings stay.

the emotions magnified.

& lets just hope the maturity grows with them.

hurm...

kalau terfikir masa depan.

banyak yang terlintas.

apa sudah sedia minda untuk kelas bermula nanti?

apa barang kena sedia sebelum terbang kembali?

apa keseronokan yang diidam2 dulu sudah dibuat?

duit dalam bank sudah disusun?

duit dalam dompet sudah dikira2?

duit untuk masjid dah get ready?

damn.

fikir serius sangat.

anyway,

azam tahun baru?

never had one.

aku ada hasrat yang sentiasa muncul setiap masa, jadi itu tak kira sebagai 'azam tahun baru'.

jadi, apa hasrat?

-mahu belajar ala nerd.

-mahu saving ala stingy.

-mahu shopping ala 'tak ingat dunia'

-mahu hias badan ala metrosexual. (lol)

-mahu kahwin ala romantik. (tunggu beberapa tahun lagi)

& of course, -mahu abadikan diri ala hamba yang sedar diri.

wishlist aku

-ipod nano (bought) *under mp3 category*

-wallet baru (bought)

-kasut baru

-dumbbell

-mouse baru

-headphone + mic baru

-external hard disk

-pentorch yang owh-some *nerd*

----------papehal, tambah lagi.

kalau bosan terperap di rumah, keluarlah dah hayati keindahan alam (atau shopping mall, doesn't really matter)

& Harry Potter part 2.

CEPAT lah wei.

nak tengok 'wand' pancut warna-warni sambil 'stun/kill/jinx/curse' ahli sihir yang lain.

David Yates, diharapkan kau dah hasilkan perang di Hogwarts yang 'unforgettable'.

& why does Merong Mahawangsa have to be released in March?

I'm already at UWS at that time.

kat Australia ada ke x? hurm.

pretty much my babblings & ramblings for tonight.

nyte.

2011

new year

new stuffs ahead

new things to experience

this life will still be the one and only life i have.

doodling every bits here and there.

:)

happy new year.