rasa?

dia senyum...
tapi adakah dia gembira?

dia nangis...
tapi adakah dia sedih?

dia ketawa...
tapi adakah dia ceria?

dia termenung...
anda tau ke mana dia merewang?

>terasa bukan bermakna pilu, mungkin hanya mahu kata2 rindu?<

bila hati merapu lagi...

"alum" ku tekan ganas...
hampa~
"alum ferric chloride" ku tekan kurang ganas...
ada sedikit sinar... SeDiKiT...
"alum water treatment" ku tekan lemah...
otak dah tepu... sudah tidak dapat beza sinar dan kelam...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

selamat "homosexuality" , "human population" , dan "solar cell" memahami...
sinaran harapan bahagia...
tunggu untuk di"reference", di"analysis", dan di"copy-and-paste" idea2 bernas...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"optimisation", selamat aku tidak perlu research pasal kau...
kalau tidak, tak tahu ku nak tulis pasal apa...
" optimisation is 'pengoptimuman' ", maybe~

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"al-quran: the forgotten jewel", ko memang memori indah maksimum...
aku terharu... aku terasa seperti insan baru...
mahu sahaja frame kertas2 itu...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

"legendaries of malaysia", ko sedikit hampa...
namun, aku tetap puas...
hanya 3 hari dapat markah itu, kalo 3 minggu?
ku juga salah edit, ku rasa.... maaf groupies...

alum, ouh mengapa.....

SAM... kau memang suka tengok aku begini kan?

auckland atau monash, adakah kau sudi?
atau india???

erk~ apa ni...

ouh mengapa,
hanya kalbu rindu,
jangan diingat masa lalu,
penuh syahdu,

ouh mengapa,
kasih datang sekali,
hanya ucapan sakti,
penuh memori,

ouh mengapa,
dunia bagai retak,
jangan beri ku bara,
hatiku lara,

ouh mengapa,
mimpi indah hilang,
realiti menyerang,
jiwaku pasrah,

jangan ditafsir,
ini bukan kisah kasih,
hanya rentak kalut,
mahu lurus padu....

jangan difikir,
ini curahan picis,
seribu satu karut,
taktala minda kabut...

>aku nk teka sape watak kucing ngan panda, boleh?<

BABE~!!!

a word usually used by those two... but, in this very moment, i'm not going write about them... let them be them~~~ :P

i watched this movie entitled "babe" yesterday at star movie... it was about a little pig @ piglet's life in a farm full of various types of animals and they talked... tuptap tuptap, the piglet (babe) became a "sheep pig" <== pig that herd sheep (into @ out of the shed); derived from the word 'sheep dog'...

the piglet strived through all the troubles trying to become 'somebody' in that tiny little world... weird, eh.. i'm writing about a piglet... lalala...

the story managed to hold my attention throughout the 1-hour-plus duration... the piglet was depicted as an innocent and naive creature that just want to be the very best in 'his' life...

>erk~ a piglet taught me something... lalala...<

>shou wanna lend his 'bawah dunia' dvds to me, yeish<

bawah dunia...

just arrived from watching underworld: the rise of the lycan... COOL-a-land!!!... cara cerita agak mudah; boleh agak2 sikit sana sini... but the way it was presented, my eyes just couldn't blink... terkesima dlm keseronokan... had some lighting-overdose-moment to my eyes, however, with all the 'splash-sploosh'es of the swords... nevertheless, it was great... my red money was not wasted.... Not like The Spirit where all that i could understand is to love your city, no more no less... he~!? <== aku pening baca balik perenggan ini... kamu?
(three sentence connectors in one paragraph, lalalala)

kata2 dari satu buku...
kontradiksi idea dalam satu organisasi bukan tanda keretakan, tapi itu tanda pengembangan idea demi kebaikan organisasi itu.... cara dan penerimaan berbeza... kepelbagaian itu menarik, bukan~?

back to underworld... my favourite character is victor... the vicious vampire leader who still can fight a strong young man despite his age... Cool... I also like the flying-without-wing fighting scenes... I was like an electron in an excited state; felt like to fly with the actors... sejak kecil, aku suka bahagian2 yang memaparkan aksi luar biasa (bukan luar tabi'i) manusia... unique yet weird...

kalau ada yang tanya aku "mengapakah encik fareez masih boleh tengok wayang sedangkan kerja kolej (atau kerja sekolah) bertimbun?"...jawapan, "silalah baca buku 24 jam tanpa henti, tanpa tengok tv, tanpa buka laptop; baru kamu boleh tanya kembali soalan itu kepada saya"... lalalala....

happy holiday to all...
may you (or we) have fun with the books...

apa kata itu!!

-taylor's is my 3rd home-
seriously speaking, with all the owh-goodie2-and-very-accomodating assignments, i HAVE to search for my sources at taylor's library everyday (almost)... this also applies to many SAM-nites who are getting used to this new catastrophic environment (i'm taking my sweet ol' time)... >lalala<

papepun, tolak kerja2 menarik itu ketepi, mari kita menghayati erti cuti yang boleh membenarkan aku bergolek2 seketika... hurm~ tidak mampu...

~kata2 khayalan~

semua orang akan menghadapi masalah dalam kehidupan; satu kepastian mutlak... tapi, persoalannya, bagaimanakah kita menukarkan masalah itu kepada satu pengalaman manis yang akan menjadi kebanggaan buat sementara waktu atau jangka masa panjang... aku satu produk gagal dalam 'handle' masalah <=== tidak perlu huraian terperinci mahupun ringkas...

masalah boleh menyebabkan kekabutan maksimum, kekalutan minda dan kehuru-haraan jiwa...

anyway, obstacles make us grow and mature... they may be bitter but they do taste sweet later on, somehow without we realise...

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if you try to reach for the sky, try building an airplane <== if you really want to feel it...

>lalalalala<

of movie and AJL

huhu... went for a movie this evening... just to relax the unsettled mind...

hilal chattered with zuhair: oit, nak tgk maut ptg ni.... *maut is the title of a movie... not like we were going to watch someone die for real~~~

aku mencelah~~~

fareez: mau juga, mau juga...
hilal: on~~~

--- after the movie ---

WO!!! really shocked for a while after the 2nd scene... scary~~~
>insaf ke?<

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then, for the much-awaited show for this week... AJL... huhu...
my favourite singer, Faizal Tahir... not because we share the same name, :P , but just because his voice is very Oh-la-la...

--- the result ---

best show - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (i screamed like hell for a sec) suka2~~~
best vocal - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (serius aku terharu)
best ballad - sampai syurga, Faizal Tahir (WAAAAAAAAA!!!!)
-after these three winnings, i'm so sure he's going to win the overall-
best ethnic - farah~~~
best pop rock - lagu untukmu, Meet Uncle Hussein (lan's voice was so powerful, undeniable)
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Overall,,,, drumroll~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Lagu untukmu, Meet Uncle Hussein!!!
I was so devastated... Really wished for faizal to win~~`
but anyway, MUH was really great tonight... teramat layak menang....
Faizal, your winnings were totally a blast... Ko rockz~
>love his show... very unique<

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Class starts again tomorrow, yei~~~

khas utk ko~~~

kata semangat untuk anda~~~
semoga sihat selalu...
ramai individu kasih akan mu...
risau bukan perkataan bagi mu...
tabah dan sabar... k~?
untung bagi mu...
>salah kah kalo aku tidak lihat perhati keadaan mu?<
>1001 maaf<

owh kau~~~ yang aku tahu 1 feb ialah hari wilayah...
apa signifikan?
>tidak apa, aku tunggu<
>demi mu<

apabila otak dah karut,
kerja dah bak gunung,
kau masih berani blogging?
tahniah...
memang produk berjaya...

kosong bukan tiada~

ku rasa seperti mahu beredar jauh,
kau pegang ku erat, ajar ku erti tabah...

ku rasa seperti mahu lepas perasaan terkumpul,
kau tiup hembusan damai, ajar ku erti sabar...

ku rasa seperti mahu serah jiwa kepada nafsu,
kau ajar ayat suci, ajar ku ketahanan diri...

ku rasa seperti mahu hidup seorang tanpa sekitaran,
kau bawa ku ke realiti, ajar ku maksud kawan sejati...

>aku kosong, kau hendak isi diri ini~!?<

momel + tantum = momentum!?

thought of that equation during Phy's class... Out of boredom and blurriness... :P
trying my hard to cope up with the 'new life'...

Oooo... Dr. Mahathir gave a talk at Taylors this morning on 'Global Peace'... Eventhough some of my classmates attended that one-in-a-lifetime talk, i chose to go to class (sayang wo escape Phy + Maths)...

Quotations from those who attended...

"Best!!" - As expected from Dr. M...

"Suprisingly seronok" - Not expecting a good talk... turned out otherwise...

"Dr. M cute gak la" - Erk~!? no comment

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Officially, J1 has four lenghty essays to be done...

# Biology - <1000 words... on the effect of increasing human population...

# English - ~2000 words... still hasn't decided on the topic... >anything under the sun< huahua

# Chemistry - <1000 words... on Alum as flocculating agent... (never heard of that before)

# Physics - 1000-1100 words... still hasn't decided on the three topics...

>This is why I love SAM so much<

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hanya masa akan beritahu~

Fikir~

minda manusia terbatas, itu pasti...
bukan semua dalam linkungan pemikiran...
bukan semua dalam pemahaman minda...

Oh Tuhan, lindungi aku dari terbabas...
Oh Tuhan, lindungi aku dari terpesong...

Aku lemah,
Aku hina,
Tapi aku masih kurang sedar...

>Semoga sentiasa dalam lembayung-Mu<

>war<

mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita tahu erti tahu perpaduan...
mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita betul2 faham erti agama...
mereka tidak akan berhenti selagi kita tahu erti kemajuan menyeluruh~~~
zionis, kau kejam...
palestin, tabah~! hanya kata2 itu aku mampu~

>mari berdoa sesungguhnya, the least we can do<

kata2 mainan---

cuba lihat kiri kanan...
mana kawan, mana sahabat...
mana realiti, mana fantasi...

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apa tujuan kita diwujudkan di muka bumi?
apa tujuan kita dilahirkan oleh ibu bapa?
apa tujuan kita masuk sekolah?
apa tujuan kita bekerja?
apa tujuan kita mempunyai agama?

>ini mungkin soalan retorik, mungkin tidak<

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>nape dia pakai, yg lain x pakai...?<
soalan lazim~ aku x mampu jawab...
hanya ketetapan hati yang mampu selesaikan...

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apabila aku masuk taylor's
SEM 1 aku di awangan...
SEM 2 aku di daratan...
harap SEM 3, aku bukan di lautan dalam...

baru sedar, tidak semua itu berpihak pada diri kita...
baru sedar, realiti itu wujud...
baru sedar, kasih bukan paksaan tapi penerimaan...

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pernah tidak kita jalan2, kemudian orang memerhati tajam kita, seolah2 kita melakukan kesalahan besar... sedangkan kita hanya berlagak biasa tanpa sebarang kepelikan gerak geri... hurm....
aku mmg pelik inside out... anda tau? sila abaikan aku~~~

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>jangan mimpikan kejayaan kalau kau masih mengabaikan erti diri dalam kehidupan<

maaf sebarang kekhilafan...