Y4

I imagined medic would be hard. 

It is. 

What did I expect, anyway?

We have three OSCEs, lines of write-ups and presentations, and hefty logbooks this year.

Now I understand when the year coordinator told us that Year 4 has lots of "fatalities". 

Numerous times already that I had tried to give up. 

Penat.

Especially for this rotation. 

Pagi2 pergi hospital. Balik around 5pm. 

Body doesn't want to sleep in the evening and can't study either.

Malam pun xleh nak study sgt. Tidur. 

Repeat daily. 

Weekends, main2. Dreading the weekdays. 

I want this. 

I want to become a doctor. 

I have been telling myself this since primary. 

Don't fail me now.